Tuned in to Random Acts of Kindness!

>>4073
I think this is the ad image they were talking about in this screenshot.
>>4207
I'm looking at that board for the first time. 8/kind/ used to have an ika avatarfriend before avatarfriending was banned. It would be funny if that was him still doing that 10 years later on 4cuck. We also used to have threads for saying good night and good morning to each other like they do. Oh my God, the /g*dscommunity/ guy is there too! I'm a huge fan! He hasn't posted on his board in months so I thought he died.

My friend, whom I've known for a very, very long time, has a peculiar quirk wherein they will vanish off the face of the earth for months, one time even for a year, at a time. I never know if they will be back or not. Normally I can bear it and the time passes by quickly, but…

To word this post in the way I'd like to tell my friend, and to get it off my chest; I feel like I am losing my mind. I miss you a lot, and I've tried every conceivable method to try to get in contact with you again. It sucks being on the receiving end of this kind of relationship and I really, really miss you. Hell, even my other friends wish you were still part of our game group. Just not the same without you around anymore buddy.

>>4285
Maybe your friend is a seaman or bubblehead (submarine crew), or maybe he has to travel to remote places as part of his job, people like geologists or offshore fishermen come to mind.

>>4285
i'm like your friend and i'd like to say sorry in his place. i cut every friend i had because i had to put different masks for different friends and nothing felt genuine. i also absolutely despise instant messaging on phones because it feels like an uncanny invasion of privacy and i get very anxious when my phone vibrates. for some of my friends i guess it felt like a surprise because i got very good at masking to the point that i can be in complete pain inside and the other party thinks i'm having the best time, and i would also never ever tell them there's an issue between us or that i need to stay away because i never wanted to hurt anyone's feelings, so maybe that's why it feels so out of the blue. maybe you can relate.
or maybe he has a demanding job like that other anon said idk.

>>4287
Nothing like that, sadly. I think they might have been bipolar because they'd kinda just flip out and nuke their entire presence online every few months, typically over something minor. It sucks because when they're otherwise not moody, they're a blast to have around, and funny. They're an awesome person who added a lot of character to the games we play.

But this time, they've been gone so long they're about to miss a lot of big events we had planned to do together this time of year. It makes me terribly sad that they won't be here to see it and I've been kinda desperate to try to get back in touch with them somehow so we could still do them together before that chance is gone for good. At the very least, I wish I was afforded the opportunity to try to talk things out.

>>4288
Thanks anon. I'd like to think my other friend was having fun, at least. We'd known each other for upwards of around 5 years now and they were a pretty blunt person, would tell you outright if they didn't like something and usually just went with their own flow, and they'd invite me to do stuff too. We talked basically every day but I'm starting to think they won't be back this time. I miss my friend.

>>4289
Well the time came and went for a special thing that can only really be done once, and in the end, they never did show up for it. I guess that's just life, but it still gives me a kind of sinking feeling. Even if they were to come back now, I can't reverse time and it feels bad that they missed it. I don't really mind if they didn't want to talk anymore, but I wish they'd have at least given me a sense of finality instead of having to hold on to some vague hope that they might show up again.

>>4269
10x better than the one i have. saved

>>1837
Time dilation is a mental phenomenon not an astrophysics phenomenon. What is being altered is the speed of processing in the brain and focus altering what time feels like. Brain goes faster, time perception seems slower thus time dilation.

>Studying
I can't get myself to start, I feel like everything is pointless and I can't even do things I'm interested in just because I'm interested in them, everything is hypercompetitive and I'll be left behind. Everyone I meet that's into math and programming has been practicing since they were kids, with thousands of hours of experience over many years and here I am, doing basic math when everyone else has already got a degree and started working.
I know I shouldn't be comparing myself to others but it's hard not to, when I'm reminded of the gap between me and everyone else every time I look at a book and think about how little I've done with my life.
>Reading
I read some manga here and there, I read consistently for a while but it didn't last long, again I have issues getting started. I'd also like to write something just to do something with the various ideas juggling inside my head, I keep making notes of various "sketches" but nothing meaningful comes out of them because, just like reading, I can't even get started.
>Socialising
This one I feel like I'm beyond saving, I can't get close to people and I struggle to understand them in relationship to me, as an outsider looking at a group of people I have no trouble understanding their relationships/emotions etc, but as soon as I'm personally involved, I get so overwhelmed that there's no rational thought to be had, at most I can react and usually that reaction is just to get away as soon as I can.
I was hoping by getting deeper into studies and interests I would meet people I could talk to and befriend, but it really feels like everyone else has a place in the world in terms of friendships, with various connections in multiple directions with different people, and me having not a single one of them, when I manage to talk to someone for a while, I get reminded that they have others to talk to, to do things with, I don't, and sometimes that makes me talk to people I wouldn't talk to if I had a choice (which I do, but you know what I mean).
>Working out, regular sleep schedule, diet
The only good things that I'm consistent with, I don't do anything special, but it seems ok for now.
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>>2125
>Everyone I meet that's into math and programming has been practicing since they were kids
I know exactly how you feel, comparing yourself to others is something everybody does I feel, society is built this way, not being similar to others means you stick out. But you can flip that around, like what helps me is comparing myself to the right kind of people basically. For example I know someone who successfully changed to coding as a career at age 32 after being an electrican his whole life, or occasionally read about someone who is starting an animation carreer around that age. Comparing to the small percentage at the top can be really discouraging.

>I have issues getting started
For me the beginning is always the hardest part no matter what, after i get through the first chapters of a manga or hours of a new video game it's getting easier, it's taking a while to get the gears running, and the sunk cost fallacy probably.

>>2125
It's been almost a year, anon. How are you doing? I've read back through your post and it is kind of scary how close I've come to being in your position when I used to be good about these kinds of habits. I don't like admitting that I have a problem because I'm certain the only possible way things end is with me giving up. I want to do well with my reading and keep improving in how I dissect and understand media, but it's been two months since I've done anything of the sort and I keep growing more and more scared the only solution is to stop doing it for now and be more relaxed with my reading - or even give reading itself up. There's so many other hobbies I have the stuff for but I simply don't care about. I have many modded consoles and a great arcade setup, I have enough musical instruments and recording equipment to do my own band, I have big physical music collections for listening to music, I have an okay movie setup but a lot of discs and VHS tapes, and I'm filled with dread any time I think about or look at any of it because I just don't care about any of it anymore, and I don't know if I'm supposed to care or not. I don't know what to do. It's a chore just to get myself to do the things I love anymore. To top it off, I can never seem to share my love for what I care about for others because it's just so far outside everyone else's interests. I hope you've been doing alright, anon. I'm going to be fighting the same battles this year, I think. I might make a more proper post later.

>>1627
Since posting this, I really have achieved almost nothing. I actually think I’ve gotten worse. Anyway, I am really worried that my English is now overwhelmingly better than my native language that its screwing with my mind. I’m mentally assimilated.
I need to work harder.

On the second reading of OP, I guess I was supposed to write a different character…

>>4257
umm.. you weren't suppose to change the kanji after 20 posts of chosen kanji were made by all different anon in this thread lol. I think I need to consider changing the rule of this thread because it is depressingly lack of activity. Let's make it only 5 posts by 5 each different anons to write a chosen kanji and a word which includes the chosen kanji. Then any anon get to choose a different kanji to be written and the japanese word for the next 5 posts.

>>4261
I honestly doubt there are even 5 different people who post here regularly. Besides, it's already going to be an up hill battle trying to get them to contribute to anything other than the vent thread. But please don't be discouraged. We can disregard the 'egg' post and wait for 3 other people to contribute '麗' posts. It's no problem at all.

>>4263
Nah, there's definitely more than 5 people here, it's just this place isn't too active

>>4265
I'm here! I just don't post.

Can't imagine anyone will reply to this. Anyway, I put those three movies into picker wheel with Porco Rosso and Porco Rosso won.

Porco Rosso will be streamed this Saturday at 8pm UTC.

>>4258
Starts 2 hours from now.

Dearest bufferfriend, I put 2 videos up as a test. Do either of them buffer for you?

>>4270
They both work!

>>4272
Yeah I don't know what the problem is then.

it's 2 am why am i up

I fucking love smoking weed.

I just had sex with a shedinja…

>>4234
Leave the cicadas alone!

So it might turn out I have been taking caffeine wrong all this time.
Apparently drinking instant coffee with lots of milk meant it was coming it very slowly, pretty much meaning I was pretty low on it despite thinking otherwise as I was making coffee with about tablespoon worth of stuff.
So yesterday, on a whim, I decided to chug the whole half-liter can of energy drink before after-work dinner AND BOY, it actually gave me a kick after a hour. Consider that I might have ADHD, as getting started on anything even mildly boring like washing dishes after myself is pretty hard (I know I should and I get quite anxious about needing to get shit done, yet I won't start - that sort of stuff) and it turns out that when the stuff is actually kicking, I CAN DO STUFF.
Could be some euphoric effect or something, but normal people tend to be able to do chores without much fuss, so I might actually need to get checked for that shit already.
The energy drinks with juice in it seem to have less caffeine, about the half the normal amount, if you were curious.

>>4214
So, why is this a bad thing? Is there an actual argument to be made or is this the standard "grr technology bad" luddite sentiment on display here

>>4219
Copying and pasting the image failed to upload it

>>4219

luddite I'm guessing but ZUN used some really low quality AI textures for the backgrounds in TH20

>>141
I helped co-worker, done his part of job

>>4221
He's used stock photos as backgrounds before, I really don't see how this is different other than it looking like shit.