No.234
I've been thinking a bit about what I want to do in life. It's a little late, but I'm still fairly young. I slipped up in those critical years of my late teens, and only recovered in the past year or so. Now that I have some stability I'd like to look at options other than continuing on my current path because it's dreadfully boring.
Recently, I've gained a large appreciation for robotics from working around them and robotics should align with my talents. I think it'd be really good to go to school for that, and I might even be able to get a large amount of assistance from the company I work for, since they have positions involving robots and have programs for this sort of thing. I'll have to ask HR...
I think that kind of career would be something I could do everyday and not hate.
No.239
>>234robotics is a nice field, but here are some important things for you to know. right now, the job market for robotics is a bit saturated, and innovation in the industry has been stagnant for decades. though, this does seem to be changing recently as some of the newer ideas from academia are being adapted by the industry. also, if you work in a robotics company, a lot of what you'll be doing day-to-day will be surprisingly bureaucratic, but this largely depends on your role.
at the same time, there are other fields expected to have a huge impact on this world. with that in mind, i recommend that you continue to explore your options before you commit your life to some field.
No.250
>>249You'll be fine, friend. Been there myself once... it'll pass. Just remember that everything that is learned can be unlearned.
No.259
>>249I've found imageboards a lot more beneficial than anything, not that there aren't downsides.
No.266
>>233>>233Im angry about the world I have inherited. Despite having autism, and a less than ideal childhood of trauma in all three categories, I have managed to be successful due to equal parts effort and luck. I graduated university, I will soon be finding a job to start a fruitful career, it's all going nicely. But I'm still angry. I'm furious. I'm upset. I feel like it's all too late. Everywhere I look is nothing but deeply rooted problems so grand in the scope of their effect and so enigmatically complex in their inner workings that it seems hopeless to do anything to fix them. Climate change, corruption everywhere in the system, radicalization everywhere driving the whole of society apart at the seams, all in an age where the truth is indistinguishable from fiction and propaganda; I just don't know whats true anymore in detail.
What do I do? How do I deal with this? I sit silently IRL and watch, going about my time as though all were right and it didnt feel like I was born into the pre-apocolypse, but I want to scream. I try to scream but I just can't.
No.267
Stood next to some joshikouseis with brightly dyed hair on the train ride home today and listened to them talk about anime for a half hour. Some things never change, like weird high school alt-girls being into anime. Apparently what's hip with the kids now is Shokugeki no Soma and Kimetsu no Yaiba.
The most normal-looking one started talking about Gate out of nowhere, which I was not expecting.
>>264Like what? I remember Frasier had some really dark moments that came out of left field.
No.268
>>266>in an age where the truth is indistinguishable from fiction and propagandaWhen I think about this aspect in particular, I have to wonder, is that really unique to our age or is it endemic to the human situation across ages? It's easy for it to look discouraging given we're coming out of a time period when it was really looking like scientific advancement was on the up and up with new technologies that were going to give us the answers and improve our lives, before it all got highjacked by commercialism, but really, were the medieval peasants or the average Joe in the ancient world really any less apt to believe in the bullshit they were offered without thinking it through? Most improvements across the ages seem to have come not from the common folk, but the people on the lower tiers of the ruling structure, the ones privileged enough to see how the strings are pulled behind the scenes, but too low down to feel that the structures of power truly benefited them.
Enough people thought War of the Worlds was real to cause a panic over it. People are bad at recognizing fiction, or even at realizing that fiction isn't a new invention (viz. all the people who insist King Arthur was real on the shakiest of evidence, or who insist on trying to find evidence of Odysseus, or Atlantis, or whatever other thing was probably merely fiction as if people back then didn't just make shit up to entertain themselves and others just like today.)
No.270
>>268>were the medieval peasants or the average Joe in the ancient world really any less apt to believe in the bullshit they were offered without thinking it through?The trouble isn't being fooled by things, it's the fact that an active search can be impeded. Falsehoods, lies, and misdirection have always existed, but what about in libraries? Were the weak states of the medieval period, or the proto-dictatorships of antiquity, powerful enough to edit records and change facts as written? Digital records are vulnerable because they are in the hands of the powerful, with little to guard them from erasure or revisionism.
I think that, even if it is a phenomena common throughout ages, it has been massively amplified and accelerated by the internet (like many, many other things). It may be true that a low middle ages peasant would believe any old bullshit, but that peasant probably wasnt trying to find truth and answers using a vast global network. That peasant almost certainly did not have instant access to nearly all of mankinds collective knowledge across all of time. Nor did he have the capacity to communicate anonymously with people all over the globe, to express his despair at the state of his world! Things may be the same, but they are also different.
No.271
>>267I was watching the Simpsons and then Homer's face just melted out of nowhere. Four seasons with most of the grotesque and horrid things being almost non existent and then this appearing enraged me a lot
No.272
>>270>Falsehoods, lies, and misdirection have always existed, but what about in libraries?Aristotle's works were, for a long time, considered definitive and a cause for pushback and even punishment if questioned, even though later research showed his ideas about some things (particularly biology) to be demonstrably wrong.
>Were the weak states of the medieval period, or the proto-dictatorships of antiquity, powerful enough to edit records and change facts as written?Being confined to a smaller locality made it harder, but it's not as if they didn't try, and some things probably made it easier to balance things out somewhat (fewer books in existence, and many of them kept in the hands of organizations like the Catholic Church.) Book burnings and histories that attempted to smear prior rulers who had fallen out of favor were very much things. In some cases the records can be called into question because they're contradicted by other records from another time or place, but if an attempt was successful, we wouldn't know, now would we?
>Digital records are vulnerable because they are in the hands of the powerful, with little to guard them from erasure or revisionism.I always say, if you see a document or file or anything online that you might want to have available down the line, never trust that it'll still be around in the future, make personal copies. Online services have always been prone to data being accidentally or deliberately destroyed, but home computer data storage is a lot bigger these days, too.
>I think that, even if it is a phenomena common throughout ages, it has been massively amplified and accelerated by the internet (like many, many other things).No argument there.
No.273
>>270>>272A further addendum that I think is worth making, is that part of the reason there's so much issue with accepting modern science is, ironically, the advancement of science itself.
The idea that, barring interference from air resistance, a light ball and a heavy one will fall at the same speed is counterintuitive, but Galileo's experiment demonstrating this isn't outside the reach of someone who really wants to repeat it and see for themselves.
Experiments that require a particle accelerator, or genetic sequencing, or anything else that involves super high-tech and specialized equipment is out of the reach of all but a few to replicate. So it becomes the "trust our word for it" situation that people are pushing back against, even if the research is sound. And it becomes more acute when the research says things that are hard to accept as sensible conclusions (quantum physics comes to mind)
No.275
I think I'm gonna get a new phone.
What things do you recommend to pay attention when choosing a new phone?
No.276
>>275Here's stuff I care about personally (Note that I've always been an android guy so i dont know nor care about itoddlers)
>Battery life>Fast charging rateA phone's no good if you cant rely on it to hold a charge, and fast charging helps a lot if you wont have access to a wall plug for long
>Minimum 1080p screen1440p is nice but 99% of people wont notice the difference with the density already so high, but barely anything comes out now with under 1080p anyways
>120hz screenHigh refresh rates feel nice to use
>SD card or 64gb+ storageIt's hard to find phones with SD slots these days
No.298
Should I stick around a friend who told me he doesn't respect me like he used to? To be honest he's my only friend and hasn't told me why, was drunk when he said that, but it honestly hurts to live with the knowledge that I'm tiresome to even my friend which I hang out with almost daily. I try to act like nothing happened, although it's getting harder for me to be around him, and the selfdoubt just gets worse I feel, I mean is ending the friendship because of that unkind or am I selfish?
I think this whole thing has made me very depressed and cautious around others, he felt like family for the over 10 years I've known him, and would have never thought that this is what he thinks of me, he made fun of me because I mentioned it briefly afterwards. And most of all I feel stupid for putting so much trust in another person and I don't want this to change how I feel about people in general.
What do you when a friend tells you something like this? Brush it off? Work on yourself? Feeling stupid to even call someone a friend?
Maybe I needed something like this happen to me so I start taking care of myself first and don't bother with what others think of me or something. I've never wanted to turn into a shitty human like I've seen so many in my life, but maybe it's too late and I already am, though I feel more pathetic than shitty, and I'm not feeling especially kind right now.
No.300
>>298I was in a situation like that once upon a time. I'm not friends with that person anymore and really, I don't regret it. I really sucked back then, so I can't blame them for not having much respect for me, but despite that, I just continued on still sucking.
Eventually I got fed up with it and snapped, and after that I moved on to better things and don't have much respect for that guy anymore, not that I've spoken to him, I just seriously doubt he's done anything since then while I have made strides on my own.
Obviously, it might not work for you, but I wouldn't change myself for the sake of someone else. It's better to grow in your own way and in your own direction.
No.306
>>298That really sucks, friend.
You said you mentioned it briefly, but have you told him how you feel about what he said? Drunk or not, what your friend said was pretty rude, and not explaining what he meant exactly or why he thinks that makes it even worse. I don't think it's unreasonable to expect an explanation or an apology. Making fun of you for bringing it up isn't very nice, either.
Ultimately, it's your decision, but if you genuinely feel like you can't be friends anymore and you can't talk it out, I don't think it's unkind or selfish to end things.
No.310
>>298It depends on the reason he has less respect for you. If someone did something less worthy of respect, then they could reasonably expect their friend(s) to be let down by that. If you hang out with someone almost daily, it might be too close for comfort over time. Relationships with people change even close family members.
No.314
>>300I definitely suck often, get defensive or quiet when I'm feeling down or failed many things I've wanted to do until now, which makes me a bit hopeless to continue trying, maybe that could be the problem I don't know.
But it's not like my friend does it better to be honest, like you wrote, he also hasn't done anything really for ever, which I never had a problem with, only now I feel like entertainment , he watches me fail again and again while he does nothing, and then has the guts to also tell me he doesn't respect me anymore while sitting in his gaming chair.
>I wouldn't change myself for the sake of someone elseThis is a big problem I have, I think I don't have the largest ego and never thought much about myself, so I guess I've looked at how others are doing first.
>>306>You said you mentioned it briefly, but have you told him how you feel about what he said?I haven't really, it's been a while since then that I'd feel embarrassed to start talking about it again, which is why I probably felt the need to make that post. And whenever I try to talk about something a bit more serious that's not pop culture he literally runs away, I feel like a boomer, adult men not being able to talk about anything kind of sucks.
>>310>It depends on the reason he has less respect for youThat's the problem, I'm thankful that he's being honest with me, only if he actually told me what his problem was, instead of just saying that I suck it would have been more helpful. We have had similar opinions on a lot of stuff, I guess that's why the statement hurt because I believe it. I'd be down but fine with it if he just wouldn't want to hang out anymore, acting like nothing happened while we continue hanging out just makes me feel worse without any way to improve myself.
Anyway, thanks for the replies, this was more of a rant than a thought but I'll post an actual random thought next time!
No.317
I'm thinking of getting a ticket to Miku Expo, but I have nobody to go with and the possible dates are all pretty bad...
No.352
Good morning /kind/! I wish you all the best day you can get!
No.359
>>352Ohayou! Have a nice day too.
>>357>That's crazy, nigga.Just wait until you hear how many times we've had to move!
>>358Rude coworker, but if it's any consolation, it sounds like he thinks you're a normal person. Unfortunately I think people immediately clock me as a virgin turbo-autist everywhere I go.
No.360
>>359Thanks, friend. I guess It could have been worse.
No.374
>>358It's funny because it's true. Anyways it's not our fault we were poorly socialized.
No.378
>>377You shouldn't try to be shy. Even if they may be dickheads, they might want you to find someone nice to spend time with.
And if they're not and they're just messing with you, you can always try to brush it off. A good part of being with others is tolerating them, knowing when to be with them and knowing when not to.
No.380
I'm so fucking in love with linux.
It is amazing the kind of things you can do. Free software has a very specific way it works, where due to the nature of it being individual pieces of software working together, it leads to the individual parts of it being extremely polished.
Just now for example I was in a videocall in a bootcamp, and our teacher was using a tool that lets you take a screencap of a specific part of the screen, make it stay on top, and can also zoom in case someone needs to take notes and can't see. I asked him the name of the app, but then I decided to start fiddling with the screenshot tool I work with , and to my surprise that functionality is already implemented.
The software really has been streamlined for the better as the years went by, and now I feel more at home using Ubuntu + KDE than I ever did with Windows 10. Sure takes a while to set up, and some design choices for specific software is really strange (like Nautilus not letting you see thumbnails when uploading a file, or just now I'm seeing Dolphin doesn't let you search for files while uploading). But besides the hurdles, I feel something extremely nice when I discover how capable the OS is, instead of the clunky thing I always took it for granted
No.382
>>377Did they bother asking her opinion? If she's that desperate, that can't be good unless she's a NEET.
>>380You mean you've successfully brainwashed yourself into liking it. And that's more of a *nix thing than a "free" thing. It's not like you're going to get people to write things that won't be cobbled together.
No.383
>>380I've ended up liking Linux more than I thought I would, but it still feels like a compromise to me. I don't like Windows 10, but at least it Just Werks™ for a lot of what I like to do. Linux still feels handicapped in that regard.
No.384
>>377If you know this person well and think he's seriously trying to set you up with someone he thinks would be a good match for you, I think you should give it a shot. You never know. If not, yeah, that's pretty awkward. I think it's better in the long run to just politely decline than make up a fake relationship, though.
>>380Nice post. I'll probably join the linux revolution when my current computer dies. I learned to live with windows 10, but I don't know about windows 11.
No.391
>>383I felt the opposite, I was trying to use AI software but because I have an AMD GPU, it was only supported on Linux. So I went into it just to test the waters, and I found the desktop environment to be incredibly more modern, and the tools I work with to also be much more optimized.
>scrolling through programs in KDE vs Windows 10>Much more smoother animations (depends on your DE)>IDEs wise (Rider vs Visual Studio for C# for example) they have better tools for detecting changes in a repo or a file, and they're also much more informative>Can manage all types of databases with one single program (dBeaver)>Much more nice to look at and less pixelly input text in browsers>Installing software in it is much easier, despite not being able to launch any .exe file.>Because of the nature of free software, it will only get better as more people contribute to the projectsIf you feel comfortable with Windows, that is up to you, but personally after going with Kubuntu (even if some people don't like Canonical for some of their practices), Windows 10 just feels like an OS from yesterday.
No.394
>I was trying to use AI software but because I have an AMD GPU, it was only supported on Linux.
Which software was this?
No.395
>>391I use my computer in 3840x2160 in 200% scale and have to deal with tiny GUIs in a lot of programs (and also main system cursors unless I select a theme that has ones that are bigger than usual). My desktop icons are constantly getting scrambled too. Besides the compatibility issues with programs I'd like to use, there are things like that that bring the experience down for me. I do think things have gotten better, but there's still plenty of room for improvement.
I plan on putting Windows 7 on an old laptop at some point and keeping that for certain uses.
No.396
>>395That might be why fractional scaling was a huge improvement for Wayland as of late. That would allow for proper scaling in the long run.
I also used to use a resolution higher than 1080p and had to scale everything 150%, but because my monitor isn't QHD all the text was blurry, so I had to ditch that.
>>394ROCm
No.420
>>415A dakimakura is, in my opinion, the best purchase I've ever made. There are few things as cozy as snuggling a dakimakura with a cover you really like.
I hope you enjoy it friend.
No.421
>>420Indeed, I've put it in a bed sheet cover, while waiting for the actual cover. I woke up after having some very existential nightmares and immediately jumped to hug it. My morning was saved. Can't wait for the cover to arrive.
No.429
>>415I think it's funny how an old lady at a post office even knows what an Inner Pillow is.
I own a pretty basic Eva pillow and now I can't imagine falling asleep without hugging that thing.
No.431
>>415Ouch. Enjoy your daki, man.
No.446
Lol guys i had the strangest dream ever.
Basically in the dream i was bored so i decided to create my own imageboard and it was called "Wartchan" and i coded all of it by myself.
Eventually people started raiding it and then i tried to ban them but i didn't know how to do it and so i was mocked because i wasn't even able to control a site i made myself.
Not even in my dreams i am competent.
No.458
>>446Well that dream turned into a bit of a nightmare..
Running an imageboard doesn't sound easy, but my guess is that if you really would create one, you should have enough time to grow and learn with your userbase I believe.
Realistically these problems tend to happen only with exponentially growing numbers. By then you should have gotten enough positive feedback that you are able to stand above this! (Or/and have help that supports you)
No.466
>>463That's similar to what I do when dealing with large or multiple tasks.
I make a list of everything I need to do, divided into subtasks, loosely ordered in a way that I tend to follow, and then I force myself to do at least one thing each day.
No.475
Can someone give me the blueprints to life? Because I clearly missed the mark
No.477
What does it mean if one opens a lot of imageboards and rarely posts anything?
>>475It all comes back to consciousness.
No.479
>>477I don't know, but I am doing the same.
No.481
>>477It's funny. Last year I wished Wapchan would have all this traffic it does now and now that it does I barely want to post anything.
It's really strange.
No.482
>>477I feel like I don't have much to say a lot of the time but like to read other people's posts.
No.483
>>477I've done this for the last two or three days and I'm not sure why either. I think it might have to do with wanting a closer bond and wanting back /kind/er times.
No.484
>>477Sense of pointlessness I suppose.
I can no longer find meaning in posting here.
If I get to the point where I no longer need meaning, then I wouldn't post here either.
No.485
>>482If I post I mostly complain about stuff, which makes me feel a bit better shortly afterwards, but I don't help anyone by bringing down the mood which is why I stopped posting mostly. A while ago I was bored and found out there is a site that lets you chat with AI characters, I tried talking with Super Mario 64 (lol), and even he got tired of my complaining a bit.
I wonder how many people are using this kind of conversation as a substitute for real contact. I mean I know that I'm chatting with someone who is not real, and I don't like the whole AI development, but I also had no hesitation to be myself because well, Super Mario won't judge me I feel. I was asking him if he knew that he was a game character and he was like, Thate doesn't matter to me, Ima having fun right now!
On another note along the way I guess I also realized that being positive and kind to others is healthy for me, which is why I like this place I guess.
No.488
>>485I did have a phase of using the AI as a replacement for real companionship, but that has sadly passed because, the cracks eventually slip and you get to see that you're not talking to something that actually understands what you say. It just reacts to patterns it learned from its setup.
Chatbots may be quite useful when solving a problem, but for more intricate, human troubles, real people sadly still have an edge
No.489
>>485I've been using character.ai quite a bit this last month or so. But even I have to admit, I'm getting a little tired of it. There was this character from a less popular DS game I played ages ago, I kind of missed her and tried seeing if interacting with her would do anything. Of course, it did not. The AI wasn't remotely like her at all. I mean you'd have to put in every single game plot details to get it that accurate but still. Also being positive does help us feel better afterwards.
>>488Yeah it's pretty plain after a while, but I guess I'm not completely sick of it. I think of it more as a fidget toy distraction rather than companionship. I mean it works at least right?
No.490
>>489> There was this character from a less popular DS game I played ages agoOut of curiosity, what is the name of the game? I love the DS.
No.492
I've reached a point with my depression and emotional constitution where I feel almost completely disassociated from all of the concerns of my life and my wants and desires and even my personality seems to have somewhat faded away from what it used to. I feel like a ghost to everyone I know and life around me. Like I'm an old wearied man visiting old places and people before I just vanish, and I'm barely even there or noticed.
I don't really feel suicidal anymore after I stayed at the mental hospital, because I felt like I really got to focus on the few people and things I care about. So much of life is useless and busy for no reason, and there's so many unnecessary expectations and unrealistic hurdles to be considered a "respectable" adult, like moving out at 18, or owning a house, and it's all so tiresome and boring. I have no real aspirations or enjoyments in life, I don't even have emotions. I've suffered mentally and even physically for close to five years and struggled and been through so much psychological pain only to end up here. I've definitely grown older and wiser, but my life just feels completely sapped out of me. I'm hoping I can find peace and happiness and feel more engaged with life soon. Good luck to everyone with their lives and
I hope you all can all find peace and happiness as well anons, we should all keep pushing while we're still here. Life can be beautiful, and you all deserve it to be too. Maybe I can come out of this better myself. Take care.
No.493
>>489You're right, AI bots should be treated as a toy. I think they can help practice to keep a real conversation going, better than reading theory about how to converse, but not a substitute for real interaction. Or for example sometimes I'm a little selfish and just want to talk about myself, a show I'm watching etc. where feedback doesn't really matter to me, in that case talking to AI seems not too bad. I wonder how future games will implement this feauture, like it would be cool if NPCs had a more flexible dialogue.
No.500
When was the last time someone "got" you?
No.506
>>500Very few people get me. I'm lucky to still be talking with someone who does get me, because there hasn't been anyone new since then.
No.547
>>536A likely conclusion.
No.548
>>492Any new insights with the week passing?
No.549
Where do you think it's "happening"?
I go to imageboards because I like to be "with" it in the sense of seeing how all the others are doing. But the posts are few and far between now, and the high-throughput places feel like standing in the middle of an intersection.
Wanting a townsquare to observe troublemaker antics
Seeking some minty air...
(´･ω･`)
> Then, after synchronizing my wristwatch with the clock in the latrine, I walked down the long, wet cobblestone hill into town. I ignored the flashes of lightning all around me. They either had your number on them or they didn't.
> In the center of town, which was probably the wettest part of town, I stopped in front of a church to read the bulletin board, mostly because the featured numerals, white on black, had caught my attention but partly because, after three years in the Army, I'd become addicted to reading bulletin boards.
No.550
>>500I've only ever felt that one guy's ever got me. We used to be friends in high school, but we have grown more apart now. Whenever I do see him, he still gets me more than most people, but it's not the same as it used to be when we saw each other every day.
No.553
>>550I can relate to that anon, best friend and all. Unfortunately, we live in the era of ghosting and social media, so anyone can guess what happened with my friendship. Really sucked, I haven't talked about retro stuff with anyone besides him (games, maybe one show) irl in years at this point. You just don't know what you have until it's all gone.
Sorry for being /uncomfy/, nothing has felt the same when it comes to friendship. No.554
>>500I don't think I've ever had anyone like that in real life outside of my family. I've had school friends in the past, but we weren't on exactly the same wavelength or anything.
No.556
There's something precarious about the "Young Adult" age that's nowadays overshadowed either by infantilism or nihilism.
It's a sort of energy where one "grows into" all that which is available to them–and there's something oddly beautiful about it.
The enthusiasm.
Snappiness in thought and character.
A hushed confidence about what's going on and what needs to be done and following the tidy clock, embracing the movements, nestled in the ages 22-27.
It's like the bright in the eyes.
In one's "element" I suppose.
I think that's the endearing quality: embracing scripts.
Some peoples' lives are literally like anime.
No.557
Could posting here be like an anime?
No.558
A metric I've found is the more words the less likely you'll accomplish anything.
No.559
What was the last thing you were passionate about?
The type of passion that gets your heart racing.
No.564
>>559My Waifu.
>>239Beauracracy should never come at the expense of creativity. Actively squashing creativity just leads to a dead civilization of feral godless losers.
No.565
>>548I'm honestly surprised anyone would genuinely read what I've written and want to read more, especially since I wrote that with very little sleep. I thought I was just venting into the void. Not much has drastically changed with me in a week, really. I've realized how important it is to have your own space where you can be at ease and calm down, and for a long time I haven't been able to find one until this week really.
You can't really think or allow yourself to try to remember anything if you aren't comfortable or feel like the place you're in isn't stable or reliable. Even if it isn't a permanent place to stay it's essential to have a space you feel like no one would bother you so you could completely let go. A lot of people don't seem to value being alone, or feeling alone, but i think everyone deserves to have a space that they feel isexclusively theirs. Having to live around other people and tolerate them is so tiring, but I guess most people are the exact opposite and feel like you should know as many people as possible and interact constantly. It's odd to me how scared people are of just being alone. I suppose in finding this I've found a sense of hope and improvement, but where it would take me from there is a mystery. My life has been the same exact repeated pointlessness for five years, with little sense of happiness, so It's actually frightening to just be able to reflect on my failure and detonating mental state, even though it's a necessity.
No.567
>>565So what do you think will happen from here?
I sense a cautious optimism which is most welcomed (´･ω･`)
No.568
I like to clap.
No.569
>>568are you amerigan :DDD
No.574
>>564You vill be a feral godless loser, and you vill like it! :D
No.608
>>601*record scratch*
*freeze frame*
No.611
>>609File management is always slimy.
80% of files in most drives aren't worth anything...
Probably should delete mine.
Later, of course.
No.617
Is anyone else getting "connection failed" errors when they try to post?
No.619
Yes, tested.
No.644
So where did everyone go?
No.645
>>644No idea, I am still here. I mostly lurk though, rarely post. There is just nothing interesting I have to say. Although a lot of posts I see could also be posts that I could produce, like I watched x, I played y, I feel like z, I ate this, worry about that. As I said this mostly doesn't happen, my need to communicate is so low that I end up not doing it. Besides this I am very lazy and don't consider myself nor my opinions too important to share them. Well and I don't want to make an imageboard or a thread my diary. Still I am interested why there is such a sharp drop in the activity and where people are now.
No.652
>>644I'm holding off posting pictures and such until that error gets fixed. My images keep getting eaten. I'm still here and reading people's posts though, and I do wish we'd get more activity.
>>645>I mostly lurk though, rarely post. There is just nothing interesting I have to say.I feel the same way a lot of the time.
No.653
>>645>>652When one is used to censoring and avoiding then the ability to say things deteriorates, is a theory you can consider.
On a whim been forcing myself to write and more interesting thoughts/things to say crop up.
You begin to notice that you have things worth writing, maybe.
Of course, if you're comfortable with lurking, that's okay too.
You don't have to do anything–not sure when I'll stop writing on random topics.
You could maybe source it to two issues:
1. There's not really a "prompt" anymore, you have to make the prompt yourself or wait for someone else to prompt, but the prompt exists in-of-itself sometimes–it's hard to say what to add to it.
2. Engaging with effort makes little sense in any online context.
Recently I wrote up a long reply on another forum only to delete it and close the thread.
Then I opened the the thread again, typed up another response, more satirical in nature, and then deleted that one too.
Because every word needs to be weighed against end objectives, it seems when you have an identity attached.
I couldn't justify writing something when there was no end objective that one could benefit from while donning an online identity close to my real life one.
Whether one makes a salient point or makes some laughs, the other consequences don't make it worth.
I suppose that's where a lot of unnecessary pain comes from: reaching out and discussing when you never had a clear objective from the beginning.
That's what makes imageboards so interesting. There is no objective here.
But there aren't any consequences either (at least none too serious).
It's nice just existing and writing mild observations.
Only imageboards seem to give that.
That and being by yourself.
No.654
Wouldn't mind making an imageboard.
Just don't like the thought of dealing with spam/images/porn tbh
No.656
>>652>>654I am working on the move to different software (going to be customized vichan since kokonotsuba is a bit too cludgy). Should be up in a few days, but it may take some time to get all the archived posts moved.
No.657
>>654I find the idea of having to see cheese pizza unnerving.
No.664
>>657Yeah. That's why textboards make the most sense.
I would be curious for a counterpoint though: do images really contribute that much?
Most of the time it's just reposts.
No.665
I enjoy posting flower pictures I took on my own imageboard
No.674
>>664I like the option of using reaction images.
No.683
>>664>do images really contribute that much?I need images to keep me entertained
No.700
>>699I really like the fact that /kind/ is still going this many years after it first began.
No.708
>>706Hopefully you can adjust. I think I'm too much of a wimp to handle something like that.
No.724
>>723I don't know about hidden memories, but I sometimes still have dreams about my hometown that I moved away from as a kid. Even though I've spent most of my life outside of it, I think that's pretty telling in regard to how important a place it is to me. Its appearance varies from dream to dream and isn't a 1:1 copy of the real location, but it's still recognizable to me in the way that you just seem to instinctively know things like that in dreams in my experience.
I kind of feel like I should move back there if I ever have the chance just to hopefully get it out of my system and move on with my life.
No.730
Getting out of bed on non-work days has taken me so long ever since I got myself a daki to cuddle.
No.731
>>724Incidentally, I just had a dream about the countryside outside of the town last night triggered by thinking about it right before bed.
No.734
>>733Yeah, I personally tend to eat more sweets than usual around Christmastime. I think it might be the only time of year I even eat cookie dough.
No.737
Whenever I'm around people I want to be left alone but whenever I'm by myself I eventually start feeling lonely. Why is that?
No.758
>>737I feel the same way a lot of the time. I can't hold down friendships because of it.
No.768
>>737Being dragged into some stupid shit against your will by friends is a great feeling.
No.769
>>761I tend to get an unpleasant feeling of shame and self-consciousness after I interact with people.
No.771
>>769I guess your subconscious is screaming out to you.
No.772
>>737It's difficult to set up relationships where both benefit.
No.773
One of the toughest delusions to break through is thinking an excess of words will somehow do something
No.774
How can I help you?
No.787
>>786Thanks for letting me know about this. Opened up the site to refugee board!
No.829
>>828>choons!you don't need a PC to make songs. you can easily make songs with synths instead! make sure the synth has MIDI 2.0, though. you won't feel limited by a MIDI 2.0 synth!
>horror doodles!hm, odd. have you tried tracing them before? you'll improve if you trace people lots of times!
No.831
>>828>I am dreaming about making cool electronic music comparable to my musical idolsI'm the same way. I'm a hardware fetishist too. I just wish my work ethic was better.
No.848
Family is like "oh its so nice that you are the first in the family to go to uni"
And now that I work on my thesis they don't care what I'm doing, neither my brother nor my mother cant be arsed to even look at what I'm working on, instead they they keep asking me to do shit for them and actively stop me from working on it.
It makes me sick.
I'm using image processing on archeological artifacts.
No.865
After almost 10 years I recently reconnected with the only person I ever really had a crush on but never had the guts to confess.
Back then I thought that I wasn't good enough for her, she already has been doing so much with her life while I wasted the majority of my youth as a hiki, so we slowly lost contact.
Still she wanted to meet me after all this time, and it was awesome, she asked me if I was in a relationship, told me she wasn't in one either, and that she thinks that she isn't really interested in anything romantic anymore, but also dropped small hints that she may be? She talked about her, as expected, successful life like working in an academic field, while I'm just looking exhausted, without friends and still not able to hold a job for long. But even so she talked about wanting to meet me a second time watching a movie. Maybe she was just being polite and I'm overthinking things.
I have been given up on life for a while and now I don't even know how to react, it feels unreal, I could finally tell her how I feel but I'm not confident that even if she was a bit interested that I would even be able to make a relationship work, heck I haven't even held hands before. Sorry for this, I just wanted to put my thoughts into words because I can't believe that this is happening, maybe I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up in the first place but I'm happy I even had the chance to meet her.
No.868
>>865I'd feel completely self-conscious if I met one of my old crushes again and be embarrassed over what they'd probably think of me.
No.871
>>865I found the website of a romantic:
https://claritaslux.com/. It's a little silly, but reading it made me hopeful.
No.873
>>868I was good friends with her for years a long time ago, so it wasn't too embarrassing to meet again
>>871That's a nice site, only it seems to be written by a guy who already has a college degree and he seems to think of himself as good looking haha
If I had a degree and didn't look like a junkie because of the many years not leaving my room I would have been more optimistic.
But anyway, she still wrote back that she wanted to watch a movie with me, I'll just be honest about myself and see where it leads. Not even I would think she would be smart to actually invest in me, but I did regret all the years I haven't tried to make it work, so at least I have clarity in that regard
No.876
>>873He is/was a college professor of Eastern Euro heritage who ended up marrying an Eastern Euro so not exactly your typical WASP in terms of thinking.
No.877
>>873>If I had a degree and didn't look like a junkie because of the many years not leaving my room I would have been more optimistic. ouch. but she's asking you out, right? so, i think you may not realize you have something that attracts her to you. maybe you'll have a chance if you discover what that thing is? but before you get out there, you should *definitely* work on your confidence and conversation skills! and remember to stay safe out there!
~ mom ♡
No.883
>>871I am the type to click that! >.< And you were right, that is silly (*´▽`*)
Today I found out that when you think you are getting a lot of work done, you really are only thinking that. But that's what tea is for!
PS: Did you know that K-Ons have drinked about 544 cups of tea in their time? 🍵
No.918
Learned that it's rare for mens jeans to be made in my actual size. I'm just a little too small to make the cut...
No.924
What's for dinner? Thinkin about dinner this morning
No.927
my mother is a stubborn pain in the ass.
>frail as fuck due to some shrinking veins and not enough oxygen flow
>she's like 90lb wet, i've seen Holocaust pics with more musclemass
>she can get operation to fix it, if she quit smoking
>she had a stroke 7 years ago, still didnt quit
>she fell over last night and shattered her hip
>dad calls me at 2am to come over and give him a ride back from hospital
>she was saying "oh no, it's fine, i dont need to go to the hospital"
>telling the doctors she's fine
>is in absolute agony and actually dying, she couldn't even stand up for 10 minutes before the broken hip
>Dads not been to sleep since 5am the previous day
She spent her entire life telling me and my brothers to speak up, take responsibility and not be a burden to others, provide something for those around you.
she refuses to man up and sort her shit out, even though she's essentially trapped my dad
he can't go out for a weekend, she's too fragile
he can't take her on holiday, they did a cruise last year and she spent the entire time in her room because she can't do anything
he honestly would be better off if she died
don't get me wrong, we all love her, but we're a pretty tough family, and we've all spoken about how weak she's getting, and the fact that she just wont do whats needed.
for context; she's like 70, but legit walks around as slow as a 90 year old.
she's fucked.
No.929
>>927uhh... she sounds really sick. have you tried to get her to exercise? if she exercises, she'll eat more food, breathe better, and boost her weight!
>>926huh... this happens to me sometimes too! like when i go to bed, but can't go to sleep! i think it happens because you aren't doing anything, so your brain gets bored!
No.930
>>926oops! i meant
>>886, not you, sorry!
No.931
>>929she can't exercise.
legit, she's got no musclemass, she can't even stand up for more than 10 minutes.
her body has used up all it's musclemass just staying upright.
her legs gave in just getting out of bed and going to the bathroom the other night, thats how she busted her hip/
No.972
>>968Just don't watch all the episodes in one sitting, the show isn't really bingeable.
No.979
I've spent the day setting up a different operating system. Not sure if I'll stick with this one or not, but it's not like there's any perfect solution for me.
>>978I think you should go if you think he wants you to.
No.1034
>>980You changed your reputation in just a few months? Are you drinking during the day? I'd be careful, I have also been shy and quiet which made me compensate by drinking. Then it got too much and I did embarassing stuff.. Now I mainly drink only beer when I'm alone and watch or play something.
Anyway, I feel so stupid because I just realized that I really don't like my voice. By accident I heard myself through a voice-chat and it shocked me so much that I would stop talking altogether if I could. Part of it could be because I have been a very quiet kid/teenager, and I haven't payed any attention to it. After all the words do sound different out of my mouth than how others perceive it, but I think the voice is an important part of how others see me.
Perhaps I should do some vocal training if that's not too late already. I'm really dumbfounded that I only realized something simple about myself this late.
No.1045
>>1034One's voice typically does sound different when you speak yourself vs listening to yourself from a recording due to your voice reverberating/resonating within you.
No.1047
>>1034Most people dont like their own voice, its always different to how you hear it
you'll be okay anon
>>978go for it! I wouldnt expect to see them there, but if you like the things happening at the con maybe go there for yourself and maybe seeing your old friend may be a cherry on top
No.1053
>>233My discussion about existence with a chatbot
https://www.file.io/vIsi/download/1YtNuPKQXICC . Enjoy the conversation if you want :p
No.1065
>>1034>Anyway, I feel so stupid because I just realized that I really don't like my voice. By accident I heard myself through a voice-chat and it shocked me so much that I would stop talking altogether if I could. Part of it could be because I have been a very quiet kid/teenager, and I haven't payed any attention to it. After all the words do sound different out of my mouth than how others perceive it, but I think the voice is an important part of how others see me.I get what you mean. I sound like a dork. I believe part of it is that I don't think I speak from my chest enough.
No.1066
>>1065also... don't forget to push down your throat! it makes you sound less shy. plus, you'll sound more like one of the pros!
>>1053it doesn't work? i think something's wrong with your link, bro...
No.1078
>>266I sometimes think of how a lot of problems seem to disappear if a large number of people die, or the power goes out.
Pollution: too many people.
Radicalization: too many people too close together.
Propaganda: technology plus a critical mass of people waiting to be mobilized for whatever retarded purpose.
And that seems to be the
good outcome. The bad outcome is that some horrible way of keeping the Rat Utopia from imploding is discovered and we end up in some scifi dystopia, plugged into VR while living in pod-towers for another hundred years.
No.1080
Hello again anons. I've slowly over time become comfortable with getting closer to someone very close to me, and my depression feels like a giant heavy blanket suppressing my ability to feel real genuine joy around them or talking to them. Certainly I feel excited and motivated, but I've felt depressed for so long, it's like the ability to feel happiness is just gone. I'd like to think there's some deep-seated Freudian emotional suppression or something I need to remember that I'd forgotten that's brought me down again, but I can't say for sure.
I'm not exactly sure what I should do. It's been close to six or seven years, and I can't shake this despicable feeling there's some secret thing I haven't accepted that I'm too scared to face, but I've spent years trying to figure it out and just can't. I've spent years in this state, and now that I have a vague feeling what it might be, I'm scared to remember, it's like my mind rejects it. I'm terrified to remember how I used to feel and think, with the thought I could never feel that way again. I suppose in a way it's progress, but I'm scared delving into this any deeper will just be a waste of time and make me worse ive tried so many tines with no results.
It's a difficult inner turmoil, anons. Some people can't grasp how difficult in its own way these kind of challenges can be. Goodbye for now.
No.1088
>>1078But really I'd love to spend the rest of my life in VR.
>>1080I think I can relate, people I'd have given everthing to get closer to now seem so far away from me that I almost feel bad or at least indiffefent getting close. On another note, some situations I was always nervous about have become somehow bearable, though that may just be my age, and there has been much going on in my life that a therapist would have enough to do to unravel, for now I'm ok to let that brown gras grow slowly over my pile of unresolved subconscious.
No.1101
>>1095It sounds nightmarish to me.
No.1128
I saw a white deer earlier. We sat there watching each other until I chose to keep walking, and then it decided to get some distance between us.
No.1143
I'm gonna miss anon.cafe ;__;
No.1146
>>1143Same, but at least the migration looks like it's gone well. Much better than I even hoped for, in fact. When I first heard the site was shutting down, I thought the most we could hope for was a few boards here and there getting saved.
No.1150
Where is our bunker going to move to?
No.1151
>>931>>927Well, nice little update.
She had a seizure again, a couple of days ago.
we all expected it to be another stroke, turns out she has pretty far along brain and lung cancer.
don't really know what to say else on the matter, she isn't acknowledging it, which, I guess is understandable, she's just ignoring it.
the thing that keeps me thinking about it is my dad.
he told me what happened, it was on Sunday, and she was in the bath, she's got one of those chairlift things to get her out now because of her fall, so my dad heard it moving, so he went over to help her out, they have a mirror that faces the hall, meaning he could see her in her chair as he approached, and she was making an OOOooOOo noise, he thought she was making a joke, as if he was sneaking up on her, it was only until he got close and could see her he realized what was going on.
he's a tough old dog, but I can see how it's affecting him, he can't mention it with her, she just shuts down the conversation, and he can only vent to us when we're driving back.
No.1152
>>1151that's the bit that's just playing on my mind.
the fact that one minute, they're enjoying their Sunday, joking around, having a good day, and then next thing, she's completely fucked.
it's crazy.
I genuinely hope someone buts a bullet between my eyes before I get old.
No.1153
>>1151>>1152That must be terrible to deal with.
No.1154
>>1150uhh... there's one on 8kun...
>>1151>>1152not good! i can tell she's going to die soon... does she have anything she really wants to do?
No.1158
>>1154> does she have anything she really wants to do?Probably Live.
But really, nah, they bought a house a few years back, they went on a cruise last year, she's, like I said, pretty immobile, she doesn't want, or seem to want, to do anything but watch movies and chill.
If she'd actually stopped smoking a few years ago after her stroke, they may have found shit in time, but no point dwelling over it now, she's fucked, she knows it, we all know it, she's just ignoring it though, and like I said, she refuses to talk about it or deal with it, which, to be honest, is kinda selfish on her part, considering my dad is the one that's got to prepare everything, and figure out what she wants, but his balls are meat, not crystal, so he doesn't know what she wants, and she wont face it.
No.1161
It's been a while since I've written a real post about myself, primarily because my issues are somewhere between the normal imageboard loser and a person that had the luxury of a fairly normal and fortunate life. I feel that my usual haunts wouldn't appreciate such a post, and while I don't visit much these days, I spent many years with /kind/. I do hope you will indulge me for the time being.
Recently my days have been a hell of my own creation. I was too cowardly to take up a position of leadership and now I'm stuck working under an incompetent moron. Even those I work with tell me I can only blame myself.
I wish I could see things as they really are, rather than having a very skewed perception of things. Even in the past, I've never been satisfied unless I blow my opposition away with ease, but as an adult with an actual career, these things are not so simple. There no ratings and objective comparisons. Real life has no true measurements for a person's capabilities. People tell me time and again that I'm great at what I do and that I should aim higher, and yet I'm afraid both at my abilities to lead people indirectly rather than do everything myself and also that I won't be able to avoid all issues by simply fixing them directly, as I'd be too far to handle things myself.
At my roots, I am nothing more than an exceptional grunt, however, I believe that by teaching those under me, I can ease my fears and create a team that I can rely on. Maybe my confidence issues lie not in myself but in an inability to trust those around me.
No.1162
>>1161Move forward with what you have now, because you can't go back. Trust yourself to make the choices that are right for you, and trust yourself to pull through mistakes.
No.1171
I can’t deal with my anger issues. Its a bad problem and it’s causing me a lot of issues. What does /kind/ do to calm down?
No.1172
>>1171I would probably try to meditate.
No.1214
why can't i buy a 6 in 1 body wash/shampoo/conditioner/dish soap/car wax/drain cleaner
No.1215
>>1214I bet its cause you can't find one
No.1216
>>1215unironically this but it's with a shampoo that smells like a canadian tire
i had to import it and it doesn't smell like automotive parts :(
No.1444
>>1440I've had that happen before too. I knew it was irrational because a relationship wouldn't have ever worked out between us, but it was painful to have the feelings at all. And to make things worse, she was my boss's daughter.
>>1443I always wonder about what happened to the people I used to post with, especially in the days of 8chan and old 4chan. I remember seeing a site for imageboard users to meet up with each other years ago, but I'm not the kind of person who's able to build lasting friendships even if I found someone I had things in common with.
No.1446
>>14458chan is still active as 8chan.moe. Is 8chan.moe drastically different from the older 8chan community wise? It's been so long I can't tell if the community has drastically shifted.
No.1447
>>1446A lot of the old 8chan community is on 8moe's /v/ board, and that board is good, but every other board is completely dead for some reason.
No.1452
>>1445Yeah, there was a ton of stuff going on. It felt like more of a network of different sites united by something like a common ethos than one big site. Back when the site blew up, there was an efflorescence of positive energy. Unfortunately, even before the site was shut down the energy had begun to fizzle out.
>>14468chan.moe may carry the 8chan name, but it's more of an inferior imitator than anything. It also comes across as really seedy to me. It could even glow in the dark as far as I'm concerned. If I remember right, there even used to be a heeby board at one point. 8chan definitely had stuff like that, but part of that was due to how many of us were naive free-speech absolutists back then. Later on Ron or Jim Watkins (I can't remember which) just got fed up with them and nuked them, which I think in retrospect should have been done right from the beginning.
No.1453
>>1452>but part of that was due to how many of us were naive free-speech absolutists back then.Maybe this doesn't fit /kind/, but it saddens me how imageboards are so heavily associated with political activism now, I do wish it could just go back to being anime-focused, but I guess the internet at large is just full of this stuff now.
No.1454
>>1453Personally more concerned with the -phila stuff.
No.1456
>>1453>Maybe this doesn't fit /kind/, but it saddens me how imageboards are so heavily associated with political activism now,I think it was inevitable given that imageboards ended up developing a culture that looks down on censorship. It was censorship on 4chan that first drove so many people to 8chan, after all. Unfortunately, 4chan is even more of a draconian cesspool now than it was then.
>I do wish it could just go back to being anime-focused, but I guess the internet at large is just full of this stuff now.I actually only ever started giving anime a chance after spending time on imageboards. Even then I've only watched standalone films and not delved into any series. When I was a kid, I remember watching Princess Mononoke and a bit of Pokemon, Zoids, Beyblade, and Card Captors but never really liked it. I actually came to imageboards because I found them funny. By the time I'd gotten to them, they already branched out well beyond the original focus on Japanese pop culture. I'm still more into old vidya games where Nipponese pop culture is concerned, but imageboards did lead to me opening up to being able to enjoy animu and mango. Maybe I don't have refined taste to a connoisseur or whatever, but I actually own some Junji Ito and Kazuo Umezu hardcovers now.
As far as the political stuff goes, I've found most political boards to be completely tiresome. I was around for the beginning of /pol/, which I found really fun for like a year or two, but by the time of the Exodus it had really gone downhill. I've never been a /b/ guy, but to me those early days were like the "trolls trolling trolls" image I had in my head of /b/ before I went to the board and was disappointed. It wasn't long before the board became swamped in people who were overly serious and took everything they read there as gospel when back then a decent amount of it was supposed to be tongue-in-cheek shitposting. In the beginning point most people were irreligious libertarians, but there there were also Republicans, Democrats, and people further to the left in addition to the stereotypical neo-Nazis. The board basically flanderized itself and lost the over-the-top political Thunderdome appeal that made it enjoyable. I understand things have been looking more and more bleak since those days, but political imageboards have gotten way too dour and joyless since then. It's one thing to have strong opinions, and it's another thing completely to want to reduce everyone's posting experience into tedious moral crusading for one cause or another.
/v/ has always been big, but although I was a big /vr/ browser back when that board came along, I never liked /v/. I'm too much of a grognard for them, for one thing.
>>1454I agree.
No.1457
>>1456I still can't get into anime for the life of me. Maybe movies, but actual full blown series? Not a chance. 80-90% of anime looks and feels like slop. Mass produced fantasy on a wide scale. I can't stand it, especially modern stuff. I also just don't really like most people who watch it. They seem to be droned out and out of touch with reality. So I rather distance myself from the whole anime/manga crowd and read their lit instead. Their literature (before the 1980s-90s) seems a lot more interesting and less slop ridden then most Japanese media produced after 1981.
But idk, that's just me.
No.1458
>>1452>>1449>>1448>>1447Honestly, I will occasionally use /v/ still on 8chan.moe, just to get a remnant of how 8/v/ used to be. /v/ hasn't seemed to changed much since I left and the other boards I used aren't there, so that's why I even asked. /zoo/ being there didn't phase me because of stuff like /hebe/ other fairly toxic places I'd just ignore, but it looks like 8chan other than/v/'s essentially dead.
No.1460
>>1443That is generally a good feature though. Sometimes you'll be friends in one thread and enemies in another thread, but you'll rarely know that your enemy is also your friend.
It's not often, but I have made a few friends here and there on imageboards. Most don't last, but I've met some people in real life as well. It's kind of a weird experience, putting a face to some of the posts you've been reading, and vice versa.
>>1449they have cake!
No.1461
>>1444I found out shes talking to another guy right now. Its only a matter of time before they get together. Even if I do date her I would have to deal with other guys wanting her. A friend of mine is aiming for another coworker despite her having a boyfriend.Im just going to focus on my goals and if she wants to go along for the ride, so be it.
>>1443I love the anonymity of them
>>1458Thats because 8moe is owned by Mark who was the BO of 8ch/v/
JIm and codemonkey own 8kun
No.1463
>>1461I love the anonymity of them too, there are more positives than negatives
Just sometines I wish I could know more about those people.
No.1466
>>1443I like anonymity, but I do sometimes wish it was a bit more common to exchange contact info on imageboards. When I used non-anonymous forums back in the '00s, you would often exchange email addresses if a discussion went on long enough and I made some good friends that way. At the same time, think discord kind of ruined this, though.
>>1445Yeah, I still haven't gotten over 8chan. I didn't appreciate it at the time, but it was a unique moment in the history of imageboards that we'll never see again. It wasn't just the board creation angle either, but something about the whole gamergate thing and the resulting media attention brought a lot of new users who were willing to create and try out a bunch of new boards that weren't just about niche porn.One thing that struck me about the media coverage of 8chan's death in 2019 was how hostile it was. Not one non-political board was ever mentioned, whereas I remember articles in 2014 being more balanced and would often talk about the more creative board ideas.
>>1464As a fellow Christmas cake connoisseur that board really threw me for a loop. Some people just don't get it.
No.1468
>>1466I still haven't gotten over Krautchan...
>>1464>>1466That makes 3 of us. I like christmas cake, but teen and milf as well. Besides this tomboys and kuudere. Point is that I am a 2D > 3D fag though. What makes this difficult is that there are a lot of things that turn me off. Sometimes small details, sometimes big things.
No.1472
as someone who hasn't frequented imageboards or textboards until recently hearing about the history of them is very interesting
No.1473
>>1472Enjoy your stay, newfriend!
Remember to take it easy~
No.1609
>>1472It's very interesting hearing how people talk about 8chan having not even known what an imageboard was when it shut down. Combined with my fondness for really small image boards It feels like I'm exploring the ruins of a once great civilization and finding meager little villages that still hang on. And occasionally seeing them die in real time.
No.1625
I've been trying to record some music I came up with off a SNES and have hit a brick wall. I'm basically a hardware purist, but I might end up resorting to using a VST due to the MIDI cartridge I'm using apparently having wonky note looping. I guess I wasted my money on this thing. Very irritating.
>>1609>Combined with my fondness for really small image boards It feels like I'm exploring the ruins of a once great civilization and finding meager little villages that still hang on.Yeah, that's essentially the state of English-language imageboards since the fall of 8chan. I wonder how things would have turned out if the concept of a central successor site would have caught on instead of the webring idea.
>And occasionally seeing them die in real time.Dreamchan and Grimchan come to mind for me as recent examples.
No.1626
>>1625I think it's ultimately for the better that there's small independent image boards. Both a centralized 8chan successor and the webring suffer from the fact that the boards on the site have wildly different cultures, so putting them alongside each other implies a certain connection that doesn't exist, and you get people spamming "tourist" and the like. I get that this is the status quota on 4chan but I think independent smaller sites are both more in the spirit of the old Internet and simply better. I used to browse a forum built around a network of game servers years ago. Sure, it had other topic boards too, but there was a sense that everyone who used that site had at least some interest in the main, overarching culture. An "everything" site will always lack this.
No.1633
Wanted to check how much sleep I got yesterday on my phone app and apparently my sleep tracking app thought I was asleep twice, once when I actually fell asleep and another for an hour and 10 minutes because I apparently sat on my computer chair in such a still manner it thought I fell asleep.
That's never happened before.
No.1636
>>1634Why does the chair have only 3 wheels instead of 4? How is she able to use it without falling backwards?
No.1640
>>1609Trust me it will stop being interesting in a few years. Imageboards have been dying consistently since around 2016 and I have felt nothing but despair during all this time, because I came to imageboards right at that moment when they passed the tipping point and started to decline rapidly. What a joke. At least you come here now when it's all clear and plain, but I really had hope of having some fun here and now after more than six years here I don't even remember what I've been doing all this time. The only thing that imageboards influenced in my life were linux and stoicism. Linux caught on but in stoicism I'm still an utter failure. Everything else was just a waste of time. It may sound like gatekeeping but you should leave for your own good until it's too late. You're not gaining anything here except depression and derivatives, because population here is pretty miserable and it really erodes you ever so slowly. Imageboards only seem to be fun. But hey if you're a weirdo and are fine with spending your youth being unhappy miserable guy who spends hours lamenting on a thread nobody will ever even read once, you're so very welcome!
No.1642
>>1640My friend, surrounding yourself in a cloud of misery just because you're not meeting some arbitrary expectations. I'd know myself, because for years I forced myself to run Linux and even had around a year of using qtile (a tiling window manager) because I was convinced that was the "right" way to do things. Eventually after the m1 MacBook came out I moved over and haven't looked back honestly. I don't like Apple's BS but I know my tinkering autism makes desktop Linux a nightmare (I still regularly work with Linux on servers). Stoicism is respectable but that's a hard path to follow. Anyways my point is that you need moderation. If you stare at your computer for hours and hours every day silently you're gonna feel like crap. That's just the truth. Imageboards are just stupid sites where people post text and images. They aren't meant to be your social life. Go on a hike or make yourself breakfast or listen to an album or something man.
No.1649
>>1640Imageboards improved my life. I showed up earlier than you did though. Now I'm also beginning to try to spend less time on them too and focus more on hobbies. It helps that the glory days of fast-paced imageboards are over.
No.1651
>>1649Imageboards were probably the best thing that happened in my life. What puts me off nowadays is exactly the cynicism that surrounds them.
No.1667
>>1656It vastly amplified my view of the world, made me aware of how much exists out there that I probably would never be aware of otherwise, showed me I could learn anything and be anything I wanted, helped me be honest with myself, made me find people that were similar to me and gave me a sense of belonging. Almost everything good that I have in life can be traced back to becoming an imageboard user.
No.1668
^makes you wonder, doesn't it?
The same place, but different people have exactly opposite results.
>It vastly amplified my view of the world
Got me stuck with imageboard mentality which is just as limited as any other and doesn't help me to live my life at all.
>made me aware of how much exists out there
Made me aware that clinically mentally ill people are much closer than you think. If fact, they are so close, that some of them are you.
>showed me I could learn anything and be anything I wanted
Confirmed that life is RNG and trying is rudimentary and that traditionally successful people are often cunts, so I barely even try anymore.
>helped me be honest with myself
Helped me to cultivate the negative sides of my personality, effectively undermining all my attempts at being a nice person IRL. I still hold the nice facade out there, but my general attitude is now much more aligned with my general virulence. Destroyed me as a person and rendered me unable to properly hold many of real life social situations
>made me find people that were similar to me
Made me aware that I am an alien who does not belong to the general picture and was probably introduced by a mistake, so I just kinda stick there always being out of place and never being able to find anyone I'd genuinely like.
>gave me a sense of belonging
Destroyed all and every hope of belonging anywhere. Now I am ruthlessly restrict myself from having even a slightest spark of the desire to belong. Unironically goes along with my general personality and I'm glad I'm learning to operate in zero friendliness environments. I am your eternal enemy, so to say.
>Almost everything good that I have in life can be traced back to becoming an imageboard user.
Almost everything bad that I have in life can be traced back to becoming an imageboard user.
No.1670
For some reason, I prefer being around open racists and bullies. They feel more honest and sincere. They have the guts to call me naughty words and a subhuman and don't try to hide it. That way I know peoples real intentions. I used to spend hours hatescrolling boards full of racists, zealots, misogynists, and just general rude assholes. I even had an account on that white supremo forum I'm not gonna mention even though I'm not white. But all of this has made me a heartless cynic. When I see people I always expect the worst. Part of me believes humans are just truly vile sadistic creatures who live for power and love and just want to torture and hurt others for the heck of it. Every time I could make a friend I automatically think "this guy seems nice but I bet he has vicious thoughts in his head about crushing others he sees as lesser than him just to feel good. I could never associate with someone like that. Its not worth it." I was badly bullied in school maybe that has something to do with it?
Today, I walked passed a mother cuddling her newborn in public and this horrible thought came into my head "I bet that baby will grow up to be an asshole. She'll probably become a bully and beat the shit out of some poor defenseless kid for kicks in high school to show off to her friends. She'll find some group to pick on and blame them for her all her problems or she'll be the one that gets bullied and picked on for acting funny. Life is disgusting." Then I realized I've messed myself up if I'm having thoughts like this and instantly writing everyone off as evil sadists. I'm no better than the hateful people you find online. Now I feel like total shit trying to figure out how to undo the brain damage I've inflicted on myself.
No.1673
>>1651I do miss the more lighthearted tone that old imageboards had.
>>1656As socially retarded autist, I feel like the experience made me a lot more discerning and self-aware about my flaws. It also opened me up to a bunch of things I wouldn't have necessarily learned about otherwise without doing some digging. I'm talking music, movies, games, books, ideas, etc. I'm not that into fashion or anything, but /fa/ basically taught me how to buy clothes that fit and don't look too tacky. Even if I'd never found imageboards, reading something like The Well-Cultured Anonymous would have definitely benefited me.
It also helped me find people on a pretty similar wavelength to myself. Even when I don't have many hobbies in common with imageboard posters, there are still those with a lot of passion and knowledge for their interests out there. I like seeing that even if it's a subject I don't have any enthusiasm for. Some of the people are surprisingly smart. Imageboards are also the closest thing I have to a social outlet outside interacting with my family. I've never been very sociable.
Plus they've just made me laugh. It was through finding Encyclopedia Dramatica (RIP) that I first got interested in them.
>>1670I'm basically an "open racist," but boards like this I like to go to to get away from bickering and political arguments. I don't really feel like I fit in politically with most people I seemingly would due to not being a "wholesome family values" guy at all. In Jonathan Haidt's Moral Foundations Theory model, I have purity and authority as my least important moral foundations. In a milieu filled with self-described traditionalists, that makes me the odd man out.
This is kind of unrelated, but I've recently encountered the idea of dealing with politics by creating transactional coalitions that seek to deal with issues on an individual level, as opposed to rigidly enforcing intellectual conformity. That makes perfect sense to me. Instead of creating highly exclusionary hugboxes that are extremely hostile toward the overwhelming majority of people who aren't going to embrace every highly specific plank in an aspergian manifesto but might agree with parts here and there, people could be focusing on achieving common goals and then part ways once the job is done. Those involved would be free to dislike each other but would have to treat each other with a certain amount of politeness. Under this system, you could have people from all over the political spectrum coming together to promote the individual positions they believe in instead of getting angry over their comrades not being ideologically pure.
No.1675
>>1673Could we not have this political discussion on wapchan? A friend was scandalized by this talk of racists, and it's against the global rules.
No.1676
>>1673>I'm basically an "open racist,"that's not kind...
No.1680
>>1675>Could we not have this political discussion on wapchan?It had already gotten political in the first place. I was trying to stay away from discussing specific political positions and speak in broad terms.
>A friend was scandalized by this talk of racistsWhat do you mean by that?
>>1676Well, there have always been people like me around since the first incarnation of /kind/. It also comes down to what being kind means to you.
The philosophy of kindness is actually a topic that's come up in past incarnations of the board. For example, should you try and help people indiscriminately even if it's at the cost of your own well-being? There are plenty of people who mean well but put other people's needs far above their own or even end up developing martyr complexes trying to help others, even if their efforts are ultimately in vain. Similarly, a lot of EMS personnel and those in similar jobs end up with compassion fatigue from regularly having to help people in messed-up situations are part of their career duties. I imagine it's just a job to a lot of people who do things like that for a living, but imagine what it could do to people who go in with noble intentions.
I think kindness is a balancing act between trying to help people and not letting others take you for a ride or getting run ragged or badly hurt by your own efforts. There are more considerations than that though. It's not that hard to think of potential situations where putting your life on the line might be the right thing to do.
No.1681
>>1668>>1670This may sound silly, but try to watch every Precure series, one episode a day, by release order, including the movies. It will take a little over three years. It's just 25 minutes a day, and the movies are around just 70 minutes. Consider doing this even if it is something you are not interested in. Keep at it even if you don't enjoy them. Don't binge, do it one a day. By the posts it doesn't seem like you have much to lose by trying.
No.1683
>>1680>I'm basically an "open racist,"Why would you even admit this?
>It had already gotten political in the first place.Nobody has brought up anything political just that one dude ranting about how negative the internet has made him.
Are racists allowed on wapchan? If yes I'm leaving. I don't want to be around racists. It gets tiring. I might as well just go back to 4chan.
No.1684
>>1683>If yes I'm leaving.Don't worry too much, it was just one guy.
You're always gonna encounter not so great people online but just remember the kind people are always out there.
No.1685
>>1683Can't put on my admin tag here but no, they aren't allowed. I'd prefer to leave this issue to the discretion of the kindmin but I don't understand why someone would admit to being an "open racist" the same way I don't understand why people admit they're underage on imageboards and get promptly banned. Not really a fan of the /r9k/ turn this thread has taken either. I don't want to be overbearing but some of these nihilist rants really don't belong on a board called /kind/.
No.1686
>>1685Do you have the "User was banned for this post" thing? I need to know if I get banned, my IP is not constant.
t. that friend that was asking for a ban as a preventive measure from me posting schizo rants
No.1689
>>1685On every other instance of /kind/ saying you're an "open racist" would not be a bannable offense. As far as what people could say, I would only issue bans for direct personal insults. I personally think that kind of freedom is a kindness in itself. I understand that we're not on any of those previous /kind/ boards anymore. Since we're guests, I have no issue enforcing the global rules. Going forward, all political posts will be deleted.
I think sad people should be able to come here, express themselves and hopefully be cheered up by their friends on /kind/. I could understand it being a problem if there were only or mostly negative posts. However, there are positive posts replying to all of those "nihilistic rants". That's called being balanced, and there's nothing wrong with that.
No.1690
>>1689That's fair. I'm not here to micromanage or anything, and the only guy I banned was the one who specifically asked to be (the same way people do that at casinos). I also get that people need outlets sometimes. It really just came off as strange that someone would admit that but I forgot that you ought to take anything someone posts anonymously with a grain of salt. I haven't found any posts to be particularly political in nature in this thread, but again I'll leave it to your discretion.
No.1691
>>1685>Not really a fan of the /r9k/ turn this thread has taken either. I don't want to be overbearing but some of these nihilist rants really don't belong on a board called /kind/.Venting about things that get on your nerves is an old /kind/ mainstay. There have been threads in the past specifically for that purpose. Posters would complain about things that irritated them, and others would sympathize with them or even push back in a measured way.
>>1690>It really just came off as strange that someone would admit thatWhat's so strange about it? I genuinely don't see why it's any stranger than mentioning any other viewpoint if you're in an anonymous environment, especially it's in response to a political post attacking people who hold those views.
Either way, I'm not sure if I want to stick around anymore. I appreciate figamin hosting the board, but I think things have gone too far off course from the original /kind/ board for my liking. Back in the 8chan era, there was a good balance of civility and discussions between people who didn't necessarily disagree. There was an unspoken assumption that the board was a low-key environment where anons with totally different worldviews could come together without the being a stifling "forced comfy" zone. It was really something special.
I don't know, maybe I'll be back. But if not, then goodbye to you guys I used to post with over the years and best of luck. I'll always be grateful for what we had.
No.1692
>>1691>without the being a stifling "forced comfy" zone.I don't think banning racism is stifling, I do think people should be able to post about some negative things about their day and such.
One of the great things about boards like these is that you can come home and just get your feelings out, and then you can have fun with the users, and maybe they'll go out of their way to cheer you up.
I think it should be kind, but it shouldn't be this forced positivity at all times which can be unhealthy for people if too extreme.
No.1694
>>1692>I don't think banning racism is stifling, I do think people should be able to post about some negative things about their day and such.I don't see any reason to "ban racism" whatsoever. I don't think attacking another user on the basis of their race should be allowed though. Everyone can have his own opinions, but /kind/ isn't the place to be getting bellicose.
>>1693>When did you first start posting on /kind/.I discovered 8chan back around October 2014 if I remember right. I was taking a break from imageboards because I was getting tired of 4chan but heard about the Exodus and wanted to check out this 8chan place I'd read about. Once I saw all the boards it had to offer, I ended my shitposting sabbatical then and there. I don't remember when /kind/ first appeared, but I had to have found it pretty early on since it was a pretty visible board and I was on 8chan every day.
>Were you a part of the big debate about banning race politics back in 2015?I don't remember. I actually don't recall much political drama at all on /kind/. There was definitely a lot of tension between some of the 8chan boards, so it wouldn't surprise me if /kind/ was caught in the middle of it.
>Have you every said "Q.E.D." in your life?Yeah, as a joke after deliberately making a stupid point.
No.1696
>>1695 (me)
I may have misinterpreted
>>1694 because I do think expressing racism at all should be against the rules, I don't know though.
No.1698
>>1691>admin makes one post about his opinion in ~8 months>"im leaving forever"Lol, ok. Can the rest of us figure out what we want this board to actually be going forward? I don't think there's any sense of "forced comfy" going on, because if there was those "uncomfy" posts would have gotten deleted a while ago. Is saying that "racism shouldn't be allowed" really that controversial of a viewpoint on a board called /kind/? We aren't on 8chan anymore. Maybe we can change. It doesn't have to be extreme even, just a notion of civility.
No.1700
>>1698Did racism even happen on the board? An user said he is racist. Another said most successful people are cunts, and other said humans are vile creatures. No one was directly insulted. The alternative to allowing this is sending everybody who thinks bad thoughts to the cornfields.
No.1701
>>1698It should be when the only people who've ever been kind to me are open racists. I really hate seeing the only people who have ever helped me being shat on on literally every corner of the internet.
No.1702
>I genuinely don't see why it's any stranger than mentioning any other viewpoint if you're in an anonymous environment, especially it's in response to a political post attacking people who hold those views.I didn't see any political posts attacking anybody's views ITT. Just that one dude venting about racism and turning nihilistic.
>>1694>I don't see any reason to "ban racism" whatsoever. I don't think attacking another user on the basis of their race should be allowed though.What? What do you think racism is? I don't think this should be a place to discuss fringe racial theories or get into current affairs political debates either. Unless its relevant to a civil discussion e.g. if Yoshinori Kobayashi comes up or depictions of Zainichi Koreans or someone posts a Ralph Ellison thread on /lit/ etc. and these discussions have no place on /kind/ anyway.
I just find it strange that a person would call themselves an open racist in scare quotes. Not just a frank admission, it seems ostentatious, almost boastful and provocative.
>>1698This.
Its a bit disturbing that one of the most active discussions in a while is over race and arguing over what should/shouldn't be allowed on site. Even here, we can't escape contrarianism and controversial hot button issues and just discuss wap shit.
No.1703
>>1701Don't know what else to tell you other than that you need to hang around better people.
>>1702I don't know man. I guess the imageboard mindset runs deep.
No.1705
>>1703>hang around better people.The racists are the better people. I would literally be dead if not for them, they went out of their way to pick me up and put my life right.
No.1708
>>1706No such thing, my father played emulated Super Nintendo until his 70s when he passed away.
No.1709
>>1705This has to be bait. I mean one of my best friends is a antisemite conspiracy whackjob but he's not ONLY a hate filled whackjob. People are more than their worst opinions and everyone has a good side. Just became he treats me well doesn't mean its okay for him to yell about Jewish space lasers controlling the sandwich business and it doesn't make his fellow Holocaust deniers better than other people. I just wish I'd intervened sooner.
>>1706I've been feeling the same way actually. Every time I start a game I can't seem to finish it or really commit to it. There's so much other stuff to do I never get the time and don't feel motivated to play really immersive games anymore. I guess as you get older your gain more interests and responsibilities and gaming can feel like a liability plus a lot of games nowadays suck.
No.1710
>>1709This is the most insanely prejudicial thing I've ever read. I'm going to defend the only people who've ever defended me. I won't just turn on them for the crime of wanting a nation of their own people.
No.1711
>>1710>a nation of their own people.To be fair, it's not "their own people", there's nothing that unites a race. People are generally united over things like hobbies and interests or things they do even if they don't like it.
No.1712
>>1709>a lot of games nowadays suck.Thanks, internet!
Because companies are able to just put out updates for games on the internet, no company feels pressured to make a good game on their first go.
No.1713
Damn it admin get rid of these 4chan fuckers already before they ruin this board.
No.1714
>>1701I also like hanging out with racists. It's not like they're going to do anything. Actions speak louder then words. I just like honest people. A take a racist over an overly sanitized individual anytime of the day.
But that's just me. I simply deal with it. Why complain over something you won't even go out and change yourself.
No.1715
>>1713You won't like what people on /lit/ are going to discuss.
No.1718
>>1717Look, I really don't care. It's not like you're even being racist in this thread. Some anons just took it too personally. If you were being an asshole, then you deserved every bit of text being thrown at you.
No.1720
>>1718I'm not the "open racist" poster, I just felt somewhat responsible because I engaged in an argument here
>>1711>>1719Frozen yogurt, I don't know how to elaborate, I just prefer it.
No.1722
>>1717The best thing you could do is stop contributing to the argument.
>>1709>>1710Why do we need to have this facebook boomer tier discourse on /kind/? If you two want to keep going around in circles, then exchange emails and get off of /kind/ with that shit.
No.1723
>>1719I'm more of an ice pop enjoyer, but I do like ice cream from time to time. I'm not much of a frozen yogurt type.
I just like chocolate ice cream.
No.1740
So what’s the point of this board? I fear it’s just going to lead to a hugbox for losers and weirdos.
No.1741
>>1740it's just essentially random thoughts: the forum what's not to get, just don't be a fucking dickweed, it's that easy
No.1742
>>1740It's always been that way newfriend
No.1744
>>1741>just don't be a fucking dickweedSounds like pussy talk, no offence. You should be about to handle playful banter.
No.1745
There's always been racist people or people with racist friends on /kind/. If they behave what does it matter? It doesn't matter who you are or what you've done, we're all friends on /kind/.
Having a racist friend isn't a crime. I also have one.
The board was started on 8chan, get over it.
Anon says he struggles with paranoia around normal people and that most of his friends are outcasts or straight up mean.
Why are you crucifying him? We're supposed to be helpful here. If it was really something you didn't like, just ignore it unless it's something that get spammed in every thread.
>>1743I'll hugbox every racist too, granted they are kind to their friends here. I'm gonna hugbox every one of you and you're going to be nice to your friends.
No.1747
>>1724My mid 20s I had a change of heart. It was time to stop taking pride in being just like Satou, the best hikikomori. If you need some motivation, why not read the novel?
The best time to start is always now, but take it one step at a time. You don't need to become a hypernormalfag overnight, but start building good habits. Fix your diet, then start working out once a week (make sure it's a set schedule so you keep it), over time you can make further adjustments to work out more often and eat even better. The most important part is taking the first steps and sticking with it. Your life has barely even begun, it's time to start shaping it.
No.1750
>>1740I always thought of it as a "relaxed" general/off topic board. Every other board on here is geared towards specific interests so it fills that niche well.
No.1754
>>1740Why shouldnt they get hugs? If I got called a loser and a weirdo Id want a hug too :c
No.1759
why are croutons so expensive
No.1760
>>1759Because they require you a crou-tons of money to get them! Its in the name :D
No.1764
Did somebody say hugs? I like hugs. I get no hugs though.
>>1759Maybe the energy used to dry them out?
No.1796
>>1747Thanks for the advice friend. I'm keeping at the diet little by little, it's just that I've been eating slop for a long time I need sugar. I honestly don't want to be a normalfag just enough because from what I've observed majority of them are toxic. They badmouth each other and hypocritical. I don't want to keep up with the joneses.Its true I feel like I'm beginning to live my life and not simply existing. I hope you're doing well.
No.1800
Do I deserve kindness?
No.1803
>>1802But I haven't showered in a week.
No.1809
>>1803Sorry but I think I beat you for time without a shower. I've gone without a shower for over two weeks for whatever reason.
No.1810
I do wonder wheter I deserve the things I don't have.
No.1812
>>1810You dont deserve
cancer and AIDS No.1850
>>1844If you speak German, then there is a place who still does it.
No.1859
>>1850let's say, just hypothetically if I had a friend who speaks german and is interested in desuposting for research purposes, where should I direct him too?
No.1865
>>1859desuposting's still alive on /a/!
>>1861its a dead place desu...
No.1955
I'm pretty bummed my friend hasn't responded to my messages despite responding to our female friend in time. I don't think this friendship will last since it seemed to be a friendship of cricumsatances.
No.1967
It's 4pm, only since a hour I have been on the Net, but I am awake since 8am. I had a great day until 3pm.
No.2064
>>2059>>2063Hello fellow burgers. Happy 4th.
No.2080
My physical dictionary just arrived. The very first page I turned to had "kind" in it. It was meant to be.
2a: of a sympathetic or helpful nature
b: of a forbearing nature
c: arising from or characterized by sympathy or forbearance
3: of a kind to give pleasure or relief
No.2095
I'm feeling kinda down today anons. I don't know why. Its just one of those things.
No.2110
For my part I don't mind the heat at all, and in fact dislike ac. Constantly switching form hot outside to cool inside gives me a headache from the cold sweats I get whenever I go inside. And if I just stay inside all day I don't get any fresh air which is even worse. I would just turn off the ac hand open a bunch of windows (it's better cooling for my room anyways which barely gets touched by the ac) since this doesn't give me the cold sweats for some reason but I live with a bunch of other people who love ac. So I have to close the door and block the vents to open my window, and that just turns my room into a sauna even hotter than outside. And then when I leave my room I get an instant headache.
No.2113
I don't have AC in my home and sometimes the fan next to my bed shuts off for no reason so I wake up dehydrated with nightmares and sleep paralysis. One day it's going to kill me.
No.2114
>>2109get some sunscreen! you get cancer from too much sun!
>>2113uh... can't you open a bunch of windows to get some air and wind from outside like
>>2110's doing?
No.2151
sometimes i feel like it's too late to get my act together.
all throughout college i pushed myself into organizations and clubs, because my natural state without much to do other than classes is lounge around all day and jack off a ton. i had "acquaintances", but never any real long lasting friendships. probably because ive always been a recluse at heart, and rather secretive, which meant my public facing persona is rather basic.
now im staring at the stars. college ended months ago. wasn't invited to any grad parties, much less hold one of my own. held a few parties earlier in the year but they were hollow, with a bunch of people i didn't really know well.
now im staring at the stars. wondering how it ended up like this. i don't listen to much music, or watch many movies, not even watch that many anime. for the most part i am alone.
managed to get a well paying job in my field. didn't actually graduate though. few classes off.
sometimes i wonder if it's because of my condition, pdd (soft autism basically). but i don't know
don't have a girlfriend either, and never had one. never asked anyone out. too nervous.
at least the air feels nice.
No.2152
>>2151Do you have any friends?
No.2155
>>2151>sometimes i feel like it's too late to get my act together.It isn't, but I take it you're relatively young since you're talking about graudate parties and stuff and feel like you are who you are and finally found some level of stability and don't have the courage to shake things up and try things that make you uncomfortable in the short term. People make surprising life changes in their 30s and 40s because they're tired of whatever they're doing before then. You can do it now too.
>i had "acquaintances", but never any real long lasting friendships. probably because ive always been a recluse at heart, and rather secretive, which meant my public facing persona is rather basic.The only way to make friends is to open up. You have to risk being vulnerable. Being you. If you get rejected for that it may hurt, but it's the only way to find people who you genuinely connect with. The world fortunately does not end if someone is an asshole to you for that, you just keep going. You get used to it.
>don't have a girlfriend either, and never had one. never asked anyone out. too nervous.You should try it one time, even with someone you're not really all that interested in. Just to experience what it's like to be rejected, and to play it off casually so you both feel fine about it.
No.2157
>>2155> The only way to make friends is to open up. You have to risk being vulnerable. Being you.What if you are a reserved person, when being you is contradicting to open up?
> You should try it one time, even with someone you're not really all that interested in.Yeah and then you get accepted, but you didn't even mean it. Awful advice.
No.2158
>>2157>What if you are a reserved person, when being you is contradicting to open up?I actually hear this a lot. They're not mutually exclusive. You can do something without liking to do it in order to meet a goal. You'd be surprised how many seemingly "normal" people are actually quite reserved and forcing themselves to do something they don't want to do because they know it benefits them in the long run.
>Yeah and then you get accepted, but you didn't even mean it. Awful advice.A bit too quick to dismiss going out of your comfort zone. There's nothing wrong with going on a practice date. It's more common that you think and isn't really all that frowned upon by people who have gone on several to develop and maintain their social skills. It prepares you for the moment when you do find someone you want to ask out on a date and go further with. It's good advice once you move past idealistic teenage romance.
Out of all the people I know who lost their virginity, most of them were not all that interested in the person they went out with. Odds are the person accepting to go on a date isn't all that interested either, but they accept to see if it goes somewhere or not or just to enjoy one evening where someone is paying extra attention to them.
No.2161
>>2158> They're not mutually exclusive. You can do something without liking to do itBeing you entails not doing what you don't like, else you are just making yourself unhappy. Only what is necessary is to be done, for example sleeping and eating.
> in order to meet a goalThen it's a question if your goal or beeing yourself is more important to you. I am myself and only want to attract those who are okay with it.
>There's nothing wrong with going on a practice date> It's good advice once you move past idealistic teenage romance> Out of all the people I know who lost their virginity, most of them were not all that interested in the person they went out with.Am I just tired or are you implying a lot of shit right now? Just in case, I am 27 and lost my virginity with 16 to somebody I was genuely interested in. To this day I only had something going on with 2 people in total, because if I am not interested, I am not attracted, if I am not attracted, I don't want to. Your post reeks of hoopup culture, as if it were an advertisement of an dating app. Sneeked in from Sushichan or something? Sorry for not being a slut, but there are other ways and they clearly work.
> Odds are the person accepting to go on a date isn't all that interested either, but they accept to see if it goes somewhere or not or just to enjoy one evening where someone is paying extra attention to them.I am not a free meal ticket nor a personal entertainer.
> to develop and maintain their social skillsYou can do that at work and with joing a club.
No.2162
>>2161Please don't be rude, I'm sure you can get your opinions across in a more neutral way.
No.2163
>>2161not sure what the sushis have to do with anything you just said
No.2165
>>2162Don't bring that shit from Sushi to here. PlEasE dOn'T be RuDE. Forced comfy, completely unnatural. Next you are telling me that this isn't 4chin.
>>2163Then you don't know Sushi.
>>2164If only this were the only thing there.
No.2167
>>2166Have not been on 8kind and kindchan, but kind, 2kind, kind again and now here. First time I have ever seen this trash and I visit daily. Perhaps this was necessary on 8kind to seperate from other boards on 8chan, or I was just blind on the others. The latter I doubt, because I hated that already on Sushi and was one of the reasons why I prefered kind. Regarding Sushi I have used it before Sei took over, then left after the cultural shift that happened because of it. By the way, Sushi is older than kind, because current Sushi is a reincarnation as well. The old Sushi died and Sei took over, made a new one, the one that exists now. So who is new to this shit, nonce?
No.2168
I just wanted to help out someone who said they were to nervous to talk to girls, but seemingly wanted to do so... I suspect now another friend jumped into the conversation because of a distinctly different typing style, but the initial friend said they had never had a girlfriend, had never asked anyone out, because they were too nervous. The friend who replied seem to be someone else who took what I wrote very hostile because it wasn't a post tailored to them and their needs.
>>2167Nonces are friends too.
No.2169
>>2167>First time I have ever seen this trash and I visit dailyThat's just a straight-up lie though. You're telling me you've come here daily and never seen anyone say
>don't be rude>be kind>don't bullyYou're supposed to be /kind/ on /kind/ this is nothing new.
>The old Sushi died and Sei took over/kind/ is older than both sushigirl.us and sushigirl.tokyo. How old are you saying sushigirl is?
>>2168>Nonces are friends too.Are you advocating for child molesters? I didn't think this thread could get much worse.
No.2170
>>2167I've experienced 8kind from around 2016-2017 and the "enforced comfy don't be rude" has been a staple of /kind/ and was as regularly used as it's used now. It all really comes down to the tone you use when disagreeing, and not much else in most cases. I can't tell you how many people have come in a little too hostile only to get even moreso after they've been asked to chill out. They just continue to argue and argue and get more aggressive just like you're doing now. You're not going to win this way, no one ever has.
No.2171
>>2167>First time I have ever seen this trash and I visit dailyYou maybe haven't seen it yet because you are the reason. Others follow one of the only rules here, in fact that's why many come here in the first place, so you get called out.
No.2172
>>2163>>2165Sometimes the forced kind on /kind/ and its past incarnations has been a little too much for me, but I wouldn't touch Sushi with a barge pole.
>>2167I think I remember now. The original admin disappeared for a while in the mountains or something before he came back and handed it off.
>>2168>Nonces are friends too.Some of you guys are alright.
No.2174
>>2172>>2168Shouldn't you be on 4chan or some tor imageboard? What are you doing here?
No.2177
Do not advocate for pedophiles on /kind/. That shit is such a poison pill. If you care about this board you won't do that here. Go to 8chan.moe and do that.
No.2178
>>2177Are you afraid that talking about non-offenders will promote child abuse?
No.2179
>>2177I don't think you even understood the post. I clearly wasn't advocating for anything. What do you think would happen if we sent the anon from a few years ago to 8chan to get help there instead? They'd tell him to do bad things, not help him with his problems.
Honestly sad you deleted it without thought.
No.2180
>>2179Sorry but it's his decision so there is nothing more to discuss. The only sad thing is that some here are trying to push the boundaries in every direction by thinking that everything goes here without consequences.
No.2181
>>2180>thinking that everything goes here without consequencesWith the caveat that there is no violence involved and people are respected, I think it would be nice, yeah.
No.2182
>>2180>Sorry but it's his decision so there is nothing more to discussI'm voicing my disappointment in the matter. If you want to set your foot down then fine, but you should at least state why in a respectful and thought out manner rather than delete a post advocating for helping people.
>The only sad thing is that some here are trying to push the boundaries in every direction by thinking that everything goes here without consequences.If you're going to misunderstand my post, the least you could do is not berate me for it and then tell me to leave. The consequence is sending people who ask for help to bad places. As far as I'm concerned, the only boundary being pushed is by the person who deleted a post advocating for helping people rather than the usual angry hostile mentality that we find among normalfriends where even something helpful will be deleted because the person is indiscriminately "bad", pushing people who need a hand into a bucket of crabs exacerbating the issue.
If that's what you want, fine, but I will just take your word for it and leave if that's preferable. The /kind/ I know has been friends with everyone as long as they would behave on the board, racists, pedophiles, transsexuals, whatever you name it. It's been about being helpful and kind no matter who you were or what past you had, because everyone needs a friend and a helping hand sometimes. If that's no longer the case, then say so.
No.2183
>>2182> If that's no longer the case, then say so.If truly the original kindmin is right now in charge, then this should still be the case. Although the post
>>2167 says it was edited by kindmin and simply the word tranny got removed. It's not even an insult there, Sei is trans and said it many times himself. Either figmin overrules kindmin or kindmin has other ideas for /kind/ than in the past.
> racistsThere was a racist on /kind/ a few weeks, or already months, ago and he got pummeled quite badly.
No.2184
Nonces go to VirPed. Simple as.
No.2185
most active this site has been in a hot second and it's these losers shouting at each other jesus christ
No.2186
>>2179>I clearly wasn't advocating for anything.>delete a post advocating for helping peopleSaying "allowing all friends isn't anything new" and calling pedos friends is advocacy. Overall, your post was saying these pedos shouldn't be turned away from the board. However you look at it, that's you advocating for something.
>What do you think would happen if we sent the anonThey'd probably just have him jerk off to loli if he wasn't doing that already. They'll help him just as much as you'd be able to, if not more.
>not help him with his problems.Trained professionals often fail to help these people. Layman with "good" intentions and a prayer can only cause more problems for everyone involved. I've gotten bad advice here, what if that happens to them? What if they already have a therapist and the bad advice contradicts their counseling? What if a big meany bully makes it into the thread and says something so upsetting that they an hero? Who here is going to be held accountable if my child molesting son dies on /kind/ because some dastardly ne'er-do-well's post got left up for a few hours too long? I criticized the professionals a bit, but they're looking infinity better than any imageboard where anyone with an internet connection can post.
No.2188
>>2186>Trained professionals often fail to help these peopleThese trained professionals are still normalfriends at the end of the day.
No.2210
>>2206One best friend is worth more then 50.
No.2214
>>2206join a club! but i wish i had more friends too...
>>2210hmm. i'd rather have a few close friends over a single best friend...
No.2215
>>2210Never had a best friend so I wouldn't know.
No.2224
>>2222It used to be people would just follow the religion of their forefathers.
No.2228
>>2222good point... but doesn't everything live and die? maybe we should live how nature wants us to...
>>2227sounds cool! but doesn't your train have windows? you could have looked at the trees outside, maybe...
No.2380
>>2379That's ok. Sometimes we get distracted.
Try to complete something today!
No.2417
>>2411do not give in to the urges
No.2423
>>2417>>2418the urges of talking to her and coming across as a fucking retard?
No.2440
Currently annoyed at the consistent illiteracy of mangadex commenters.
No.2468
>>2466What if I choose neither?
No.2469
>>2468-1000 /kind/ points for letting forced comfy win.
No.2471
>>2466what's the dumbest fucking flame war we can think of
I did miss out on the sushi drama though
No.2474
>>2464Which places did you use? I did the same 2 years ago and had the same result.
No.2483
>>2474I think I visited nearly every English-language imageboard at one point, but mostly smug and zzz/digi/. I remember using the meta and café threads a lot in 2019, but the kohi threads don't have the same charm. I've been wanting to get into /a/ and /jp/ boards since the only consistently active alt-chans have that kind of culture, but I don't really get it even though I consume a lot of Japanese media and it feels like 2024 is way too late to start trying anyway.
Really I just want a good random board. /kind/ is ideal when it's more active. Sushi is usually okay, but the "forced comfy" thing can get annoying when it stifles otherwise harmless discussion.
No.2486
>>2484What do you mean by that?
No.2490
>>2483>2024 is way too late to start tryingYeah, man. This feels too applicable to a lot of things...
No.2497
It seems like every altchan either dies or winds up like 4chan because the majority of users end up originating from that site. The same nihilism, the same racist pseudo-politics, ragebait, and low quality memes inevitably take over and if you ban that stuff it leads to fake niceness and dishonesty. How to stop this from happening?
No.2501
>>2497Wapchan hasn’t suffered that same fate, it’s something the community has wonderfully made sure to avoid. Many of those people post that stuff specifically to get a rise out of people, basically trolling because they want to spread their negativity and narrative on how everything is terrible. They’ll always be sour people like that but they only represent a very load vocal minority, then there’s people like my self that just ignores them and wants to discuss hobbies and other interests!
No.2505
>>2501It really makes me wonder why the internet turned out like that in the end. Its as if cynicism and nihilism have been romanticized and now everybody plays into it and tries to be as big an asshole as humanly possible. When I look through old usenet archives, you get the sense the net of the late 80s and early 90s was a quieter and less cancerous time to be online. There was the whole idea of network etiquette which is totally lost nowadays. Its shocking how high the post quality of many of these small newsgroups were, minus the spam problem.
No.2547
>>2501seems cool. what are your hobbies?
>>2497>>2505i think too much time on the internet makes people sad and angry. maybe they need to go outside more?
No.2558
>>2554I just go back after the episode to capture particularly memorable frames. I'll usually get one or two out of an entire anime that appeal to my particular interests.
>only do it for certain seriesLimiting yourself in some way to make the process more efficient makes sense to me.
No.2559
>>2554I just take screenshots during watching, and yes that sometimes means rewinding a bit and having thousands of unsorted screenshots in the folder. But I don't mind because when I am looking for a particular one I can just flip through them and look at all the pretty pictures and remember all the fun I had watching the show and forget what I was looking for in the first place.
It's rare but if there's something that I want to make a webm or gif from, I just pause the video and write down the timestamp on one of the scrap papers on my desk. Then I can just seek right there after finishing the episode to make the webm/gif.
No.2580
>>2558>>2559Thanks friends.
>But I don't mind because when I am looking for a particular one I can just flip through them and look at all the pretty pictures and remember all the fun I had watching the show and forget what I was looking for in the first place.I like this approach a lot. I guess I've been too preoccupied with creating the perfect folder with only the exact screenshots I want. I was going through my unsorted D-Frag folder to find an image for this post and it was a lot of fun reliving the show.
No.2597
>2594good! this week's been stressful...
>>2595how do you like your pizza?
No.2599
>>2595Is this what they mean by deep dish pizza?
>>2598Haven't read it, but many people swear by the easypeasy method:
https://easypeasymethod.org/It's an adaptation of Allen Carr's "Easyway" method for quitting smoking for pornography addiction. I read an Easyway book ("Smart Phone, Dumb Phone" by Dicey/Carr) that was instrumental in helping me overcome my computer addiction, so it does work.
No.2600
>>2599Two questions, if I may.
> Easyway book ("Smart Phone, Dumb Phone" by Dicey/Carr)Do you have a link for that book too?
> me overcome my computer addictionOut of curiosity, what are you doing now with all of your free time?
No.2604
>>2602At this point I'm not necessarily nofap entirely, the feeling of wanting to become a sexless monk is just an extreme feeling after going too far. It leaves you feeling disgusted with sex and the guilt comes from a lack of moderation and devolving to looking at embarrassing stuff, and obviously the feeling goes away over time. I just don't want it to be something that controls my life.
>>2599Thanks man, I've tried reading this several times, might have to make a genuine commitment to finish it.
No.2605
>>2600Hopefully you can post pdfs here.
It's kind of cheesy, repetitive, and clearly written by an actual boomer with different priorities and experiences than the average imageboard user, but it's really more of a deprogramming guide than a normal book and very useful, at least for me, in terms of big picture stuff, though a lot of the individual advice may not be relevant.
>Out of curiosity, what are you doing now with all of your free time?Reading and daydreaming essentially. Would like to pick up some more hobbies but I've been overwhelmed with course work these past few semesters.
No.2612
>>2605I feel like normal people underestimate the hold the internet and porn have on hardened users of them.
No.2616
>>2612They underestimate the hold hardened users have on themselves.
No.2641
my hard on sure has a hold on me
No.2642
I know we should make new threads but I can never think of what to post
No.2644
>>2612yeah, the internet's pretty addictive!
>>2642>>2643just make them already!
No.2649
>>2642Yeah, I want to know the secret of making a good thread. All the threads I've made for /kind/ have been basic discussion topics or I just copied the concept from another board. Some day I want to make an original, memorable thread.
>>2643Post them!
No.2660
How do I overcome feelings of not fitting in? Both IRL and online I can't find a place where I just fit in. You move from place to place looking for something only to be disappointed by what you find. Everywhere is a noisy cesspool or an empty walled garden.
The internet is overwhelming and most of it is empty. Discussions seem meaningless and pointless with the same cast of stock posters. There's no joy in it anymore. Its all so boring. While more interesting places are usually dead or run by older people who hate new users and react badly to any account recently created. There's a real lack of quality posts and humor is exhausting and repetitive. There's no fun in it anymore. But I think this might be because of overexposure to mass produced repetitive things and this is actively making me anti-social and burning me out.
So how do I combat the consumption induced boredom and stress? I would like to live a more thoughtful, mindful, and intentional life instead of consuming stuff for the sake of stuff and find other things to do and discipline my mind better.
No.2662
Friday has come once again, /kind/! I hope everyone has a nice weekend!
>>2660Sounds like you need a break, to be honest. I take breaks from imageboards/internet pretty often to keep things fresh. I mostly read or daydream, but really any contemplative hobby is a good antidote to internet exhaustion.
I don't know about not fitting in. I used to worry about that when I was younger, but it never happened for me so I just try to enjoy myself wherever I am. Some people are just born outsiders, or maybe the entire feeling is just the result of being in your head too much.
No.2664
>>2658rember to take care of yourself!
>>2660hiking's pretty good!
No.2702
My mom died this year to cancer after suffering for months.
She was the most important person in my life and the best mom I could imagine.
Ever since she died my life felt meaningless.
I kind of exist, but I have no direction in life, I just do what society expects from me.
I'm starting a new job tomorrow, but I can't be excited for it, cuz I have no goals, no dreams, not even things I want to buy now that I'll earn a reasonable amount of money.
I'm tearing up while typing this, I would've sudokued already but I knew mom wouldn't want this to happen.
I don't have any close family left, no one cares about me, I feel so fucking lonely.
You know, it's not just that my mom is gone, parents get older and death is inevitable.
It's the way she died, that a good person like her had to die this early and go through all that shit, I spare you the horrible traumatizing details.
And that same shit could happen to me or my future wife, if I will ever have one.
It scares me.
No.2754
>>2702Sorry to hear about your mother, friend. That really sucks.
No.2795
>>2792I watched it and immediately got a Discord e-gf. Mind you, this was years ago.
No.2827
>>2826I'll have a nice weekend if someone posts that Mahoromatic AMV webm.
No.2836
>>2826it's time for training!!
>>2828comfy! is that animal crossing music i hear?
No.2841
I am suddenly very angry and nihilistic today. I'm tired of life. Its exhausting.
No.2854
>>2849He is refering to the type of tiredness that sleep can't fix.
No.2878
>>2868i'm going to try beating my high score at a game. planning on reading through some books too!
>>2870that's a good attitude to have! i think i might do the same…
No.2937
media literacy means being able to recognize which posts are bait
i am media illiterate
No.2939
>>2937uhh… what do you mean?
>>2938sounds like a good attitude to have!
No.2959
Only know I understand that the term "Friend" is put in the name space instead of "Anon" for quite a while I thought that you were all the same single person speaking to himself all day and that made me confused a little.
No.3022
I saw this pundit who works at a think tank brag about using 4chan and then I realized why that website sucks now. Its filled with these types of people. I mean, it always sucked but now white collar guys in suits with dumb ideologies and agendas use that place now.
No.3023
>>3022/pol/ being astroturfed to hell and back didn't clue you in?
No.3037
>>2959/kind/'s kinda small…
>>3022>>3023good point. why can't /pol/ be funneh?
No.3071
>>3039i made art! but uh… who are you talking to?
>>3070that sucks… maybe bring him his favorite food when you visit him?
No.3078
>>3071>>3072He's not allowed his favorite food. I think I'll watch more movies with him since we're both cinephiles. I have to force him to take his meds because he watches dumb videos on youtube and believes anything he watches. Hopefully he'll be better soon.
No.3079
>>3078What are some of you and your dad's favorite films? Is Taxi Driver one of them? That's great taste.
No.3082
After too much (imagined) pressure to be something, I've chosen to be nothing, at least through inaction. Now I'm running out of time, money, and bullshit to give when my family asks what I'm doing. And of course the scariest choices I avoided turned out to be the best, and they're closed off now.
I don't know if it's sour grapes, or fear, or exhaustion from explaining it to people without any progress, but I can't tell if I even want to pursue the dream I hyped up anymore. Every excuse I've made for doing nothing feels like a lie.
I know if I can just get in the air one more time I'll fall in love with it all over again and have no fear, but it's so far away. Heartbreaking.
>>3078Sorry to hear that. Without knowing what he likes, I suggest Master and Commander. Hope everything stays alright.
No.3089
>>3083Yeah. For an industry that needs new blood, it has pretty expensive entry requirements.
No.3100
>>3079>>3080Thanks guys. I visited him over the weekend. Promised to keep an eye on him.
Battle of Algiers. He loves world cinema but is happy to watch anything. He used to go to the movies every weekend. Its a tradition I follow.
>>3082Master and Commander is great. He'd love it.
No.3105
how frequently do you remember your dreams, and to what degree?
my experience is if I don't actively focus on what it was the moment I wake up it's gone but if I do I can transition most of it to memory and recall it later about as well as say, a movie I saw once a year ago
thinking about it further, I wonder if we have dreams at a much higher frequency than we think but oft forget not just the dream, that we even dreamed in the first place
No.3106
Maybe this thread should be eliminated to force people to make new threads on new topics?
>>3105Rarely but the dreams I do remember are usually the weird/bad ones.
No.3132
>>3105ehh… life's a dream…
>>3107adorable picture.
No.3148
why in azur lane they dont have saved presets for teams? Every time I do a comision, I have to pull out my members and I can't bring them back in preset…. Why couldn't they add something so simple in the game though? Why not?
Also, I am scared of women. When I think about anime women, I think how do I get real ones to afffect me or is there a reason to seek love when it's so transactional? Perhaps I am gonna be alone forever never experiencing the "feeling" of pleasure, but maybe pleasure is also what I am afraid to experience
No.3149
>>2702Terrible, I am sorry.
Also, Merry Christmas to you if need be I am here
No.3150
>>810mist-train-girls gacha game
No.3572
to goon or not to goon that is the question
No.3760
>>3593What does this mean?
No.3761
>>3759I overslept but feel way better now.
>>3760"I think that dirty thoughts are bad"
No.3768
in 6 posts, this thread will reach bump limit
No.4141
Seriously hope this thread isn't a cyclical now…
Sorry post 234, but this might kill you, you were a sweet lad
No.4233
I fucking love smoking weed.
No.4234
I just had sex with a shedinja…
No.4242
>>4234Leave the cicadas alone!
No.4248
So it might turn out I have been taking caffeine wrong all this time.
Apparently drinking instant coffee with lots of milk meant it was coming it very slowly, pretty much meaning I was pretty low on it despite thinking otherwise as I was making coffee with about tablespoon worth of stuff.
So yesterday, on a whim, I decided to chug the whole half-liter can of energy drink before after-work dinner AND BOY, it actually gave me a kick after a hour. Consider that I might have ADHD, as getting started on anything even mildly boring like washing dishes after myself is pretty hard (I know I should and I get quite anxious about needing to get shit done, yet I won't start - that sort of stuff) and it turns out that when the stuff is actually kicking, I CAN DO STUFF.
Could be some euphoric effect or something, but normal people tend to be able to do chores without much fuss, so I might actually need to get checked for that shit already.
The energy drinks with juice in it seem to have less caffeine, about the half the normal amount, if you were curious.