No.4327
>>4326Can't be too sure.
Seems like the times I want to talk about something that is burdening me, there is that impulse. At the same time, the best way to move past that is to pretend it didn't happen, so it makes this weird mishmash really.
Doesn't help that all that I've seen just seem like fake opinions really, things that wouldn't be brought up until someone made a biased scenario that only works on someone else's logic.
Frankly most conversation seems pointless, but I'd be lying if I said that having a partner wouldn't be a neat thing (as if that had anything to do with what I posted prior)
No.4328
>>4327Writing down what's bothering you can help with processing how you feel about it and what you want to do about it. It's why most people do that. What's a fake opinion and biased scenario? There's only so many edge cases a person can mentally work with before he has to resort to rough models of what's meant to action.
No.4330
>>4328>What's a fake opinion and biased scenario?I just spend too much time on the chins, there is a lot of "biased" scenarios to try to steer people into certain lines of thought, so that's why I brought it up.
But I am not too sure if that has anything to do with it. I guess my concern is, I'd like to cry, but, somehow, I am just not able to do it.
No.4331
>>4330It really sounds like a non-specific malaise of frustration with seemingly no outlet.
No.4332
I wish I could contribute to this site somehow but I don't have the skills or the time.
No.4334
>>4332Just post. Why do contributions have to be skillful?
No.4337
I feel very tired and exhausted. I feel like an outcast and, where ever I go, I just don’t fit in. Its so frustrating.
No.4345
>>4334otherwise posts would be nothing but noise
No.4346
>>4345I don't know, you'd have to fumble really hard to both try to contribute and also just make noise.
No.4350
>>4328NTA, writing has helped me the most. I keep a pocket sized journal and a pen on my person so that I can work through shit on the go. Pausing to organize tasks and reflect on my thoughts has helped me ascertain how my brain works and what makes me happy. I'm ADHD as shit so if I don't write down my tasks in order and prioritize them they will not fucking get done. Many benefits to writing, not many downsides.
If you're into specifics, I use the A6 Leuchterm1917 Black College Ruled and the Bic Atlantis. I'd paste links but for some reason it's not letting me.
>>2858Just got new tires on my car. Lot of monie :(
No.4351
>>4350Some sites are blocked but only ones heavily used for spam (rentry/pastebin clones)
Could you send a
https://www.amazon.com/ link?
No.4355
I feel like I really hate penguins all of a sudden. Every time I see one of those birds I fill with rage. Their manner of walking is most foolish.
No.4356
>>4355Thank goodness you don't live in Antarctica.
No.4360
>>4359Neglected to mention: I don't really read manga or watch anime very often. I am an outsider to the medium.
The last escapist manga I read was Do You Like Big Girls. It was grade-A ecchi comfort.
No.4361
>>4360>>4359I haven't read any manga in years but there is this slapstick manga about a diner in japan called Working! which is funny and wholesome so it might be what you are looking for.The chapters are short and the stories are kinda limited to a few chapters at most so it won't turn into a chore to read.
I would also recommend denpa onna (I can't remember the full name.) It's about a weird girl that appears in a town and starts living with a boy and his mother. The anime was cut short due to some IRL earthquake, so the manga would be a better way to experience the story.
Last but not least "mushi shi" is extremely comfy, although i have only ever watched the anime.
No.4362
>>4359>Don't know where else to post thisA manga thread. Make one.
No.4367
>>4352You can shorten amazon links just by removing ref= and everything that comes after.
https://www.amazon.com/LEUCHTTURM-1917-Ruled-Notebook-Pocket/dp/B00J4ZEA4E No.4381
>>4378Try chi kung. You have an overabundance of jin which in layman terms can be described as sexual energy. It's a physiological phenomena, one that can be controlled with chi kung or other methods of meditation. Read mantak chia's books if you are interested, you can find them on libgen or torrent sites. Be warned though,he has a lot of books but you should start with his secret smile book for now. You can literally channel that sexual energy into something else so try and read some of his books even nthough they might look funny or jibberish at first (they are not)
No.4383
>>4380this is a rude gif >:c !!!
No.4386
>>4381meditation is hard. don't have no will. also fasting. it's hard but good, full belly is a fuck. people who preach small but frequent meals are anti human morons.
No.4403
I hate /b/. Sort of. Not the keen hatred, but the kind of hatred you'd feel towards nazgul. They're just so disgusting. Literally a circle hugging party of drooling retards wasting away their days floundering their supposed IQ superiority. It's like.. nearly the most incongruous thing you can see on the clearnet. I wish they didn't exist.
No.4413
Also, children. They're everywhere. Oh god please save me from this madness. Sometimes I think I'm going insane and it really takes effort to remember that most of the time I talk with children. I desperately need somebody with a sense of humor. But that's a topic for the vent thread… wait that's the vent thread! OK, I'll go ahead then and say it. All my attempts to befriend people my age failed. It wasn't bad by any means but it just ended. Because I'm an unstable asshole. Daamn that's too hard. I just can't maintain anything. I don't know. I am too miserable.
No.4415
>>4386>no willThe fact that youre posting here proves otherwise.
If youre interested in mantak read the Multi-Orgasmic man as a starting book, then you can delve into Cultivating male sexual energy and then other occult books which will help you achieve heaven.
>Multi-Orgasmic manIts a book that will guide you through the process of having whole-body orgasms without fapping and thus losing your vital seed which is tied to your bio-energy or chi. Check the /fringe/ denouncing lust threads if you want more stuff like this.
>chi kongIts actually spelled qi gong, anon.
No.4418
>>4416I like to think that in a better world (a world without /b/), everywhere would be /kind/.
No.4420
People who are the most adamant about denying something are usually those who believe in it the most. The notion that all human beings are equal, that one is better or smarter than everyone else, that this political view is correct while that one is wrong, that one isn't really mentally ill/sick/homosexual/inferior, all of these things are repeated so violently only because the person saying them wants to cover up their pain. I hate this behavior so much that it makes me sick. Life feels so pathetic because I am forced to get along with people that I don't want to, say things that I don't really believe, be with people that I don't want to be with. My inability to lie and my wish to speak and interact with the world as I see it has caused so much hardship in my life since childhood. I've been excluded from everything and punished for my own nature. The truth is that I'm not kind, I'm not a good person and I'm definitely not better than everyone else. There is bitterness, misery, pain, contempt, anger and excitement that needs to be expressed, but can't. It's quite stupid for me to say all this here of all places, but this is the rant thread so this is my rant.
No.4421
>>4420You are a homosexual? I don't see your point.
No.4422
>>4416People still use /b/? I thought they were all bots and zombies.
No.4423
>>4421People who are the most adamant about denying something are usually those who believe in it the most. A person who violently screams about the equality of all human beings and denies/excuses all of the differences people may have with each other that make them better or worse does so because the notion of being worse than someone else is painful and claiming that everyone is on the same level is a way of coping with that pain. A person who violently denies that he is homosexual and makes roundabout arguments about how this or that behavior doesn't make him a homosexual (or he is especially passionate about hating homosexuals) does so because the idea of being homosexual is painful for him and he wants to cope with that pain. The person who boasts about his intelligence, denies his mistakes and frequently berates others for being stupid does so because the idea of being stupid is painful for him and he needs to act in a way and put himself in situations where he can feel intelligent as a way of coping with his feeling of inner stupidity. The inability for people to accept themselves for who they are and to point out the faults or defects of other people (like disability, mental illness, homosexuality or stupidity) is something that I find contemptible. My inability to mask my disgust or contempt for someone or my tendency to voice my dissatisfaction with things in general have caused hardship in my life, because it has prevented me from obtaining friends and communicating well with others who generally demand that you try your best not to upset them. Is that clear enough for you?
No.4426
>>4423Actually it's not clear at all
>people are in denialCorrect.
>My inability to mask my disgust or contemptYou what?
-I'm not gay!
-You're gay fucking accept it already!
-I'm noooooooot you're not my friend anymore!!!!
-Noooooooo I hate the world so much
Honestly friend I can't understand what's your issue exactly.
No.4430
>>4423You'll see people denying human differences because the conclusions that could be made from others being inferior is too disgusting to tolerate, not because they're inferior themselves. This is a normal white person's level of empathy. I think you're making a lot of bad faith assumptions about people and torturing yourself over it.
No.4432
>>4426>>4430If that wall of text wasn't enough to get my point across then I'm afraid nothing will. I wrote all of that and you two seriously think that I'm trying to make a point about racial equality or repressed homosexuals? I am trying to get at something much deeper here, which you would start to get if you stopped treating everything like "symbols" to vomit at. Is your next interpretation going to be that by "saying things I don't believe in" I mean that I can't say neighbor or be open about voting republican? I am a little bit reluctant to be inflammatory like this but someone needs to let you know how irritating and full of yourself you are. Maybe you can consider it an act of kindness.
No.4434
>>4432You find people who hurt others to hide their own insecurities contemptible. You made that clear, and I understand, but how much of what you see is this and how much of it is things you're reading too deep on? Do you want to continue feeling what you're feeling or is it too important to let go to you, or are you being real when you say that you can only be honest?
No.4435
>>4433Satanya is so smart as always! I shall buy a bun as a reward!!!
*cute picture of Raphi.jpg*
By the way I already forgod what Gabdro was about. Only some vague sketches. 2017 was only… 8 years ago… friends ima cry right now
No.4461
I fapped and now I suffer for it. I hate libido. I hate this misaligned world.
No.4466
I am feeling profound distress at the heightened sense of lack of substnce to my existence. A dreadful feeling. I am afraid to reach outside of my skull. Friends why do I have to be so mentally ill
No.4467
>>4461I like playing eroges. I'm happy with this
No.4468
>>4467Good for you, friend. But I must train my will to be invulnerable to this suffering I can't endure.
No.4471
Visited /kohi/. What could go wrong? Nice chat this and that, yeah? Nope. World is a fuck.
No.4478
huh. i launched myself at this thread hoping to rant the hell out if it and then struck thoughts void wall
No.4481
Was playing a game with some friends and had an extremely unpleasant experience. One of my friends needed help with something, so I tried to help them, but friend 2, who reads a bunch of guides and tutorials and stuff, launched into a, no joke, 30-minute long aggressively inquisitive rant against me when they saw the changes I made (which were just two parts switched around and like a one-minute fix to undo).
When I finally said I just wanted to continue the game and not deal with a pointless barrage of questions for something easy to fix, they suddenly starting telling me to stop being so emotional and moody even though all I asked was if we could just continue the game… Even the first friend I was trying to help ended up dogpiling on me too for some reason.
The entire ordeal was super unpleasant and I have no idea why they were acting like this, I usually enjoy hanging out with them but the entire experience was so bad I barely feel like talking to them now or continuing the game we were playing. I wasn't mad or upset or anything at the time, but thinking back on it now does make me feel annoyed since it seemed extremely mean-spirited what they did in retrospect since they took the chance to make a few really mean personal jabs at me, too.
No.4482
>>4481such are the tradeoffs
No.4484
>>4481You were dismissive of whatever your friend was saying, probably advice and an explanation of why the changes you made weren't good. You were seen as emotional because you acted defensive about being corrected. That's the only explanation I can think of.