Tuned in to Random Acts of Kindness!

>>4066
There is absolutely no rest for those cursed with the 'tism. You can try to hold it down and pretend to be like everyone else, but all it takes is just one slip up and you'll let it all out. I give up. I'm just not meant to be with other people.

>>4127
Form friendships with singular persons and avoid group dynamics unless it's populated mostly by autistics who know what to look out for. When people don't have to conform to group expectations they're a lot more willing to be genuine, but it's hard to predict how they may act around others.

Why is Japanese grammer so hard?

>VERB GROUPINGS

>One way to approach Japanese verbs is to classify them into three major groupings according to the way they are conjugated when spelled with Roman letters. (This classification method does not apply when they are written in the Japanese syllabary.) These groups are:

>Group 1: The u -dropping conjugation

>verb=>hairu(to enter) stem=>hair- masuform=>hairimasu masenform=>hairimasen
>verb=>kaeru(to return) stem=>kaer- masuform=>kairimasu masenform=>kairimasen
>verb=>shiru(to know) stem=>shir- masuform=>shirimasu masenform=>shirimasen

>Group 2: The ru -dropping conjugation

>verb=>ageru(to raise,give) stem=>age- masuform=>agemasu masenform=>agemasen
>verb=>dekiru(to be able) stem=>deki- masuform=>shirimasu masenform=>shirimasen''
>verb=>iru(to be) stem=>i- masuform=>imasu masenform=>imasen''
>verb=>kangaeru(to think) stem=>kangae- masuform=>kangaemasu masenform=>kangaemasen
>verb=>miru(to see) stem=>mi- masuform=>mimasu masenform=>mimasen
>verb=>taberu(to eat) stem=>tabe- masuform=>tabemasu masenform=>tabemasen

>Group 3: Irregular conjugation

>This group has only two verbs, kuru (来る) “to come” and suru (する)

>来る to come, arrive: (intrans.)

>PLAIN FORM PRESENT: Affirmative=>kuru Negative=>konai
>PLAIN FORM PAST: Affirmative=>kita Negative=>konakatta
>MASU FORM PRESENT: Affirmative=>kimasu Negative=>kimasen
>MASU FORM PAST: Affirmative=>kimashita Negative=>kimasen deshita
>TE FORM(Gerund): Affirmative=>kite Negative=>konakutte
>CONDITIONAL PLAIN: Affirmative=>kureba/kita ra Negative=>konakereba/konakatta ra
>CONDITIONAL FORMAL: Affirmative=>kimashita ra Negative=>kimasen deshita ra
>VOLITIONAL PLAIN: Affirmative=>koyō
>VOLITIONAL FORMAL: Affirmative=>kimashō
>IMPERATIVE: Affirmative=>koi Negative=>kuru na
>POTENTIAL: Affirmative=>korareru
>PASSIVE: Affirmative=>korareru
>CAUSATIVE: Affirmative=>kosaseru
>CAUSATIVE PASSIVE: Affirmative=>kosaserareru
>HONORIFIC: Affirmative=>irassharu/oide ni naru/ korareru
>HUMBLE: Affirmative=>mairu

>する to do, make, to have a value, cost: (trans. and intrans.)

>PLAIN FORM PRESENT: Affirmative=>suru Negative=>shinai
>PLAIN FORM PAST: Affirmative=>shita Negative=>shinakatta
>MASU FORM PRESENT: Affirmative=>shimasu Negative=>shimasen
>MASU FORM PAST: Affirmative=>shimashita Negative=>shimasen deshita
>TE FORM(Gerund): Affirmative=>shite Negative=>shinakute
>CONDITIONAL PLAIN: Affirmative=>sureba/shita ra Negative=>shinakereba/shinakatta ra
>CONDITIONAL FORMAL: Affirmative=>shimashita ra Negative=>shimasen deshita ra
>VOLITIONAL PLAIN: Affirmative=>shiyō
>VOLITIONAL FORMAL: Affirmative=>shimashō
>IMPERATIVE: Affirmative=>shiro Negative=>suru na
>POTENTIAL: Affirmative=>dekiru
>PASSIVE: Affirmative=>sareru
>CAUSATIVE: Affirmative=>saseru
>CAUSATIVE PASSIVE: Affirmative=>saserareru
>HONORIFIC: Affirmative=>nasaru/sareru
>HUMBLE: Affirmative=>itasu

i ate 2 bulbs of raw garlic today. now my stomach hurts and i stink.

>>4134
It’s not that hard. Coming from Arabic, Japanese verbs have been so easy and painless.

>>4140
Why did you do this to yourself?

>>4143
It feels like too much to digest. In addition from all these rules, my verb vocabs are astoundingly beyond banana level to a point that I couldnt put all these compound words order between another verb correctly. What the hell are all these compound verbs even means?

I think I need to read more RAW japanese manga that has furigana on it. I kept forgetting the link of where could I read RAW release that has furigana. Anyone who knows the link please do share with me. On top of this, maybe I should double my schedule on listening to Japanese radio show especially in the segment that has special guest. Hopefully after this, maybe everything started to make a lot of gramatically sense for understanding in Japanese language.

>>4143
* for my understanding in Japanese language.

>>4143
i got really paranoid about parasites after watching a vid about them. heard garlic kills them. garlic is way better than onions. i tried to eat an onion one time but it hurt my tongue real bad and i threw up.

>>4150
I think you better off drinking a lot of citrus juice and kombucha if you really paranoid about that parasite infesting your body.

>>4150
Consider prolonged fasting.

i really wish i didn't need the approval of others so bad. i know i'm not supposed to be convenient for others, but it's always been hard for me to accept that there'll always be people who just Won't Like Me no matter what i do. it feels harder now that i know i'm in a demographic that will have even MORE people that just won't like me for any good reason and it's messing with me a bit. the concept has been explained to me so often, but it really feels like i can't wrap my head around it at all.

lesson of the day, don't forget to take your anxiety meds. this shit sucks. i need sleep

Friends, supposed you were a closeted lesbian would you tell a guy you tease a lot and are friendly with that you are single or would you tell the guy that you are not dating right now? She really teased me about some girl being my gf so I asked her if she was seeing someone and she nonchalantly told me she was single, despite me secretly knowing she’s a lesbian. It has caused me a lot of stress and has made me not want to date anyone
>>4121
It’s all complicated every girl that has shown some interest in me has given me mixed signals it has turned me off from dating and just accepting things as thhey come

>>4175
>she nonchalantly told me she was single, despite me secretly knowing she’s a lesbian
There's nothing to be upset about, It's not like she's into another guy. She'll get bored with her eventually if you still think she's into that. What most incommon about girl is attention. That's what girls always want.

>>4175
>She really teased me about some girl being my gf
I think your lesbo friend wants to fuck that girl. Or at least that's what I gathered from your post. Also she might be bisexual as she might have been probing to see if you are up for a threesome. IMO she is pump and dump material,as a relationship with these kinds of girls can be detrimental to your mental health. Just ask to fuck her and get it over with. She will probably say yes.but don't expect a relationship.

>>4176
>>4178
Ahhh no no no she doesn’t know my supposed gf like that. And it’s been stressing me out because one can take a look at our interactions and can say that there is something going on but yesterday I got a bit of clarity with her not letting me touch her despite some female friends letting me touch them. It’s weird that my mind is trying to claim her as a potential romantic interest when I don’t know man she also has like a public persona when I bring up alternative music we listened to she would say idk as of she doesn’t the band yet has tons of likes songs by them. This is why I hate the mixed signals so much stresses me out. I just want a comfy life damn

>>4175
What society labels “heterosexual” and “homosexual” are simple fictions. In any case, pure homosexuals (or heterosexuals for that matter) are probably rare. The real division is a long spectrum between people who desire distance and otherness and people who desire sameness. Those people that desire distance and otherness to the extreme are what society labels asexuals and so-called “homosexuals” are monsters because they only desire sameness. Point being, sexual orientations are fake and all identities are unstable. When we call ourselves straight or lesbian or whatever, we are lying to ourselves. If you’re getting signals from her, that’s because part of her probably is into you to some extent even if she’s working to repress that side of her. Teasing you about another girl is a way of relieving the tension caused by that contradiction between how she sees herself and what she unconsciously feels. She doesn’t want to consciously think about being in a relationship with you because it threatens her identity. I suspect she self-inserts as the other girl and uses that other girl as plot device to fantasize being in a relationship with you and bleed out those inner feelings in safe way that’s not psychologically threatening to the conscious narrative she has about herself (I’m a lesbian, I like this type of music etc). It’s a way of avoiding an identity crisis. The fact she talked to you about it suggests those unconscious desires for you are either intense enough that they spill out or she’s really testing the waters to see how you’d react. Why gauge a reaction? A. To direct your attention to some other girl, thus protecting her identity from the desire she has for you by making you off limits to her. This could also be why she told you she’s a lesbian and why she doesn’t let you touch her when. B. If she’s self inserting, she’s unconsciously exploring how you’d react to being in a relationship with her. It could be a mix of both too. She’s clearly trying to establish an identity for herself that clashes with her other impulses.

I really wanna emphasize here that a lot of this stuff is happening unconsciously. Do not just go up to her and ask her out or ask if she’s into you. That could be really harmful or put her in a stressful position. When someone tells you they are a lesbian, that’s often an aspiration. It means a lot to her and pointing out that she has contradictory feelings would be offensive and hurtful.

>>4182
falling in love with someone takes time. so, it's going to take time before you can expect someone to give a clear signal that they like you…
>>4183
what's wrong with asking her directly but gently? being asked out isn't THAT stressful!

>>4182
> I got a bit of clarity with her not letting me touch her despite some female friends letting me touch them
That's it , she is not interested in you, at least not sexually. She is probably using you to get close to someone you know. Doesn't matter, use her as social proof or even better as a wingman. She will not suck your dick however, close that book and spend your time on more receptive prospects.

>>4185
Women will usually know if they can "fall in love" with a man, the second they see him. The "I didn't like him at first but fell in love later" nonsense is a myth made by hollywood and anime companies to make money.

>>4183
In the case of males, homosexuals tend to be men with extremely high libido and a low sensitivity to disgust, often both. For women, I've only met bisexuals. As long as it's sexual they're fine with it.
>>4187
A good chunk of people can only feel love for those they're emotionally familiar with.

This thread isn’t kind at all

>>4191
Men tend to be rude and abrasive to me a lot more often than women.

>>4193
Men are a lot more passive aggressive, at least online.

>>4190
Dating is a normalfren topic of course it would end up like this. It's almost as bad as politics.

>>4195
Dating affects us more than normans , as autists we are constantly exploited by normies especially malicious women who often have this uncanny ability to spot us as soon as we enter a room. To be fair, Not all women are malicious,however evil women seek out autists like bears to honey, with the express intent to exploit us. I personally believe that politics should be banned from all boards, however dating should be discussed from time to time so less experienced frens can avoid the usual pitfalls/traps that us older guys have often fell victim to.
>>4194
You mean to imply that there are women on the internet?

>>4185
>what's wrong with asking her directly but gently?
If a person's conscious identity clashes with their unconscious feelings, pointing that out to them can be a painful thing. At the very least, it would be offensive. I guess you could try and nudge her in a direction gently but being explicit like that is dragging up a whole bunch of conflicted emotions for her.

>>4188
There are no homosexuals. Gay is a social identity people have cooked up for themselves. "Homosexuals" are just people who desire sameness and familiarity and can't tolerate otherness. They probably have a high libido because those who have stronger libido for the same sex are more likely to identify as homosexual whereas the rest of us don't feel strongly about our desires for the same-sex if we notice them at all. As for disgust, many of them feel disgust towards women's bodies.

>>4189
False. Projection.

>>4196
There are no normals and autists. As soon as you stop thinking in useless internet meme terms, your life will improve a lot.

I haven't gone on Wapchan in 3 days, I wonder what they're up to–

>>4200
Don’t bother with this thread, they’re not nice people. Check everywhere else and everything is fine. We’re thinking about having this thread pruned

>>4203
This thread has given me both the best posts and worst posts I've seen on /kind/. Why does it have to be this way…

>>4204
Another problem is that a lot of posts here could be their own thread. So this place bleeds the board.

I have to finish a massive essay for school. 5,000 words. I've been distracted for a couple days and now I can't get back into writing. I can't organize my thoughts well at all. Like I've hit a mental road block and its driving me crazy. I have another 5,000 word essay to work on too and the deadlines for both are fast approaching. Its driving me crazy and the frustration means I wind up writing less.

>>4206
I doubt they would've been made into threads. Before this thread was made, people were complaining that /kind/ is a bunch of nazi carebears cramming forced comfy/positivity down their throats. Right or wrong, the belief of some was that negativity is discouraged here. The vent thread showed them that they could be negative and prompted them to make posts they otherwise wouldn't. /kind/ struggles with making threads because, unlike the tried and true legacy boards, it isn't immediately obvious what kinds of threads are to be made here. You have to break the mold and improvise a bit, but /kind/ people are very timid. They aren't likely to do something as audacious and attention grabbing as making a thread.

>>4209
What I do when I get stuck is just set a timer for 5 minutes and write down everything that comes to my mind, without any regard to the quality of thought. Even if I have to throw most of it away, it usually gets things rolling again.

>>4217
Thanks. This helped a lot. A big issue for me is my workspace feeling super uncomfortable. I can't describe it. Word feels too distracting sometimes. So I wind up trying everything from writing stuff up in a terminal text editor or something else and then re-writing it in word and it still feels wrong. My obsessive compulsions and constant feeling that stuff isn't right doesn't help either.
>>4217
>>4217

Friends, the arc at this point seems to be over as she told her friends yesterday that she is talking to a guy and that he was introduced by her godmother. He bought her a latte to break the ice apparently. From observing she seems to be very happy. I started to feel crestfallen upon knowing this but I’m feeling better now, there is no point in holding onto something that I’m not sure was there. It feels like I can’t win friends but I must accept that and move on.
>>4183
She didn’t tell me she was. Her friend told me and that she was closeted not even her family knows.
>>4185
Yeah I’ve known her for months so I guess you’re right even back then I didn’t see her as a romantic partner until she introduced me to her mom. I asked how her mom was doing earlier today and didn’t want to tell me not in a mean way but disinterested until someone else pointed out how random it was for me to ask how her mom is again, she introduced to her mom.
>>4186
You’re right, ultimately. I’m not the best looking guy there is so ofc I’ll have some lukewarm signals.

I have a massive amount of paper work due. I'm not even halfway through it. I also have an infected wound and could be called in for surgery. I asked the higher ups for extra time. I got refused. So now the deadline is days away, my body hurts like hell, and I am having to postpone medical treatment just to get this fucking shit done. I swear I am fucking losing my mind. Its getting done ever so fucking slowly too. I am absolutely fucked. Just fucked. Nobody has anything nice to say either. No kind words of support. They think I can just pump out 8,000 words of writing in 10 days as if its nothing. I also have to work and my job is solid manual labor.

I HATE THIS LIFE.

>>4252
You are going to have lots of these scenarios in your life until you find someone. Chin up friend, sooner or later you shall find that special someone. Give it time.

>>4260
Thanks for the positive outlook, friend. Turns out she’s more incompatible with me than I thought. She was planning to cheat on her current girlfriend and I ended up telling the girlfriend about it and now the girl is giving me the cold shoulder and acting distant. It is what it is, right?
Anyway, this made me realize I have been focusing on the wrong things and putting forth efforts onto things that ultimately won’t make me happy. I’m very grateful for the good times I had with her but it seems like this relationship must pass. I’m somewhat at peace now.

>>4259
If you don't have time. Maybe you could ask deepseek AI to help you do your paper work.

>>4264
Sometimes, we should thank god/the universe for the things that he hasn't given us. My old man would always say: Most people aren't worth your time, Some individuals may make for a good acquaintance,but only a few select people are worthy of friendship. Losing this person may have been for the best.

I really feel like the world is moving in the wrong direction but I don't feel like I can have much of say about it. The whole thing makes me want to scream. Everything is going wrong.

My friend, whom I've known for a very, very long time, has a peculiar quirk wherein they will vanish off the face of the earth for months, one time even for a year, at a time. I never know if they will be back or not. Normally I can bear it and the time passes by quickly, but…

To word this post in the way I'd like to tell my friend, and to get it off my chest; I feel like I am losing my mind. I miss you a lot, and I've tried every conceivable method to try to get in contact with you again. It sucks being on the receiving end of this kind of relationship and I really, really miss you. Hell, even my other friends wish you were still part of our game group. Just not the same without you around anymore buddy.

>>4285
Maybe your friend is a seaman or bubblehead (submarine crew), or maybe he has to travel to remote places as part of his job, people like geologists or offshore fishermen come to mind.

>>4285
i'm like your friend and i'd like to say sorry in his place. i cut every friend i had because i had to put different masks for different friends and nothing felt genuine. i also absolutely despise instant messaging on phones because it feels like an uncanny invasion of privacy and i get very anxious when my phone vibrates. for some of my friends i guess it felt like a surprise because i got very good at masking to the point that i can be in complete pain inside and the other party thinks i'm having the best time, and i would also never ever tell them there's an issue between us or that i need to stay away because i never wanted to hurt anyone's feelings, so maybe that's why it feels so out of the blue. maybe you can relate.
or maybe he has a demanding job like that other anon said idk.

>>4287
Nothing like that, sadly. I think they might have been bipolar because they'd kinda just flip out and nuke their entire presence online every few months, typically over something minor. It sucks because when they're otherwise not moody, they're a blast to have around, and funny. They're an awesome person who added a lot of character to the games we play.

But this time, they've been gone so long they're about to miss a lot of big events we had planned to do together this time of year. It makes me terribly sad that they won't be here to see it and I've been kinda desperate to try to get back in touch with them somehow so we could still do them together before that chance is gone for good. At the very least, I wish I was afforded the opportunity to try to talk things out.

>>4288
Thanks anon. I'd like to think my other friend was having fun, at least. We'd known each other for upwards of around 5 years now and they were a pretty blunt person, would tell you outright if they didn't like something and usually just went with their own flow, and they'd invite me to do stuff too. We talked basically every day but I'm starting to think they won't be back this time. I miss my friend.

>>4289
Well the time came and went for a special thing that can only really be done once, and in the end, they never did show up for it. I guess that's just life, but it still gives me a kind of sinking feeling. Even if they were to come back now, I can't reverse time and it feels bad that they missed it. I don't really mind if they didn't want to talk anymore, but I wish they'd have at least given me a sense of finality instead of having to hold on to some vague hope that they might show up again.

>>2858
I maybe in love with a 20 year old girl at work,things became a bit more complicated when i realized that the feelings maybe mutual. I'm 32.
I have a strict "Don't shit where you eat" policy and I'm afraid that the age gap might make people think that I'm a creep, which I'm not, as I've never been attracted to anyone younger than me and have always been a milf guy. Also I'm partly responsible for tardwrangling a herd of zoomettes at work and don't want to feed the gossip mill or lose their respect (which is necessary for work). Lately, I feel like one of the zoomettes is on to us, as she is closely watching our interactions. This is giving me unnecessary stress, I just wanted to work here and make enough money to upgrade my potato but now things are getting weird and too complicated.

I'm tired of imageboard culture. I used to gravitate to these kinds of places because I always felt like a loser outcast. But they are either cancer or pure boredom. I can't discuss my hobbies anywhere. Its always n*gger this granny that or fascist this trad that. I'm tired of it. I need other things to do with my life.

>>4295
Yes I wish imageboards were more open to hobby discussion, despite being dedicated to hobbies. Right now I am coping with my boring cycle of get up and do assigned tasks by working on a movie, doing videogames, and going on imageboards, and I would love to talk about hobbies, yet I've never bothered because of how no one seems to be open to talking about them.

I would be so much happier if these boards were more open to talking about anything in general, as I think just learning about people's methods and perspectives is interesting and entertaining to read. So I would genuinely like to hear about your interests and how you go about pursuing them.