>even if I don't know what an ESL dictionary isI'm ESL (English Second Language) and I keep a local dictionary where I write down obscure phrases and words which are not very easy to google.
>that somebody is here who thinks before they postThat's exactly the reason why I shouldn't be allowed here, I have impaired ability to think, so sometimes I go dissociative and... I post, but it's like it's somebody else who posts instead of me. Not exactly quality content you expect probably. Just so you know I'm half dissociated right now, so I don't fully account for my actions. I strongly remember there was a very neat phrase to say that you are doing something without being fully conscious, but I can't remember it unfortunately. You know, I like to escape to English spoken places, because some (undisclosed) trauma makes me feel bad about talking to people in my own language, but often times I don't feel human when speaking English. I can't explain. When you speak your native, you "feel" it, when I speak English, I feel nothing, merely a stream of empty words that just so happen as to have a meaning. There are certain words, like love or hate or suffering, which make me feel something significant when I utter them native, but in English, I don't feel them at all. It makes me feel like a machine and doesn't help my overall condition at all. Woe to you, Wapchan, here I come, and I entreat you, for the love of God, unleash your BanHammer and purge the evils that's me, for there is no other way out and no other remedy! Only the holy powers of Erasure and Bad can save your site from be! Woe to you, don't hesitate to defend your home from scroungers like me!
>No appretiation for the medium, it's characters, writing, atmosphere, gameplay, mechanics, creators.AFAIK it is a bidirectional process, which kind of makes me sad. When I read books I immediately notice how much quality of fantasy dropped recently. It was so good and comfy in 60-80's and even in 90's probably, but the last decade or so it's been an abomination. Even respectable authors which I cherish went downhill falling for these American cliches, which are supposed to make your writing good, when in fact they make it recyclable junk not worth time whatsoever. But it's not li
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