No.2053
"most loving" indeed. i guess you and i are not gonna be more than that.
and we re not gonna be gods as that is evil so,... maybe you ll all snap and break too, not until your legs pop... but your spirit shatttered, and your souls tire. you ll pop and break... and now
you are not reading me anymore either.
so is your god.
he knows all
and at this point,. he couldnt fucking care
if the world goes in flame. or if if
im tired.
im so fucking tired of your, slow motion, decay stupidity than i just couldnt fucking put up with this fucking speed, your fucking, late and undeniable self concerned interest of your
fuck you
you are too fucking choked. he did you good. and i am as invisible as you prefer me be.
honestly. i am better of invisible and not here, literally there is nothing we can both benefit
you are too fucking genius and you dont believe in your own mistake and but
.fuck
fuck
do you see me? you dont need to.
you just need a fuckin switch, but you just wanna see me burn and crash to dirt.
you enjoyed that garbage. you fucking liked it.
you are dirty, hopeless dogshit of an evolution,
and you can only marry children like everyone else did.
haha
dying to exist here. im no saint too i gues. and you need opposition to make your life meaningful
No.2054
they like freddy mercury i guess
No.2055
i want to clear this seeming confusion but honestly it ll be as fucked as your lord thinks it shoupd be.
No.2056
it s not forgiven yet. that apple.
also the part where you eat each other is more normal.
No.2057
wish i have the mood to finish the stuff but i guess i have no energy nor confidence of myself.
No.2058
yeah im going insane and this "i ve had my share of pranks"-freddy mercury phase of me is going immortal....
and you are all blessed and lucky so maybe kiss your god's foot until you bleed and die and run your head to the ground
No.2060
sleep is good cure.... but honestly i still dont know how to put up this project. ha
No.2061
between the printer and the silicone mold, now i just hate both thing. brilliant!
No.2062
also despite being freed of slavery and whatsoever your best move is uh, pushing a child.
he really blesses you huh?
2000 years indeed.
No.2063
maybe you arr actually the satan and he just cast you o-
oh yeahwho cares it s the fact
No.2064
naturally im afraid of the religious backlash of my complaints but then again what more choice do you have
No.2065
i wanna convince everyone there's a deep compromise i ve done but i guess you couldnt tell either
No.2066
hell they might start reviving carravagio
No.2067
einstein said 70% is hardwork which clearly meant the pyramid. he hated that shid
No.2068
i guess jews didnt do motivationals as well as the egyptians... boy, arentwe done with pyramids.
No.2069
jews are best serve cold huh
No.2070
joan rivers thinks you can be deaf and hateful at the same time.
No.2071
was the germans right? just look at the rivers man. rivers of blood.
No.2072
well, i guess being god's graced we get to decide what everyone's gonna be. including the americans. humanity got nothin on us
No.2078
The other day I read a post by some guy who said that, as he gets older, he tends to seek out stories that are happier rather than ones that make him sad, angry or disturbed. Does anyone identify with this? Personally, while I enjoy comedy, I don’t mind sad or disturbing stories. In fact, I usually find them very interesting.
No.2080
>>2078I do. As I grow older my mental state is often very bad so I try to avoid anything that can make it worse. I'm all for escapism, even when it's less effective than ever.
There's this famous Nietzsche aphorism, "what doesn't kill you make you stronger" I could never relate to my experience. As I see it, what doesn't kill you leaves you beaten and weaker than in your previous state.
No.2082
>>2080>As I see it, what doesn't kill you leaves you beaten and weaker than in your previous stateFunnily enough, I think most people would rather agree with you than with Nietzsche.
No.2088
>>2082To be fair with Nietzsche, it seems he meant that in the sense of "only if you learn from it", and "to learn from it you need to be strong already". So in a way only the strong can get stronger. I think it's mostly a misused quote since it's presented as a mere motivational, when it's meaning could be a lot darker. Like, if we follow it literally, how could be the beaten and abused slave the strongest?
No.2092
>>2088You're right about that, the quote is more about learning from the darkest moments of our lives, but as you said, you need to be already very strong to do that. On the other hand, I think there are some lessons that can make us "weaker" instead of stronger.
No.2100
I've been trying to get into video games again, but many games that look like they were made twenty years ago I can't run much above single digit FPS on my computer. Even modern 2D games can't be run on CPU anymore. It's annoying how software is so bloated and slow these days.
No.2101
>>2100>Even modern 2D games can't be run on CPU anymoreI've always found that so weird. I know modern game developers usually don't optimize their games, but why would a regular 2D game have such high requirements?
It's funny, I've been trying to get into video games again too. Unfortunately, I haven't been in the right mood to configure RetroArch.
By the way, should we create a new thread?
No.2102
>>2101>>but why would a regular 2D game have such high requirements?I don't know much about coding, but my top guess is that they are using some operations optimized to run on a massively parallel chip like a GPU but bottleneck running sequentially. Old games were often built from scratch with some really clever optimizations but most devs just use off the shelf software now. Why bother optimizing performance instead of 'good grafix' when the people with old hardware probably can't afford the full price anyways?
>>By the way, should we create a new thread?If someone makes a new thread I'll switch to it, though this one not bumping doesn't bother me personally.
No.2103
Hard week. Time to rest.
>Sunday
Push-ups: 18, 18, 12, 12
Breakfast
Push-ups: 12, 12, 10, 10, 8, 8
Lunch
Dinner
>Monday
Steps with 10 lb dumbbells: 260
Breakfast
Steps with 10 lb dumbbells: 260
Lunch
Breaking ice outside in shorts: 1 hour
Dinner
>Tuesday
Lunch
Breaking ice outside in shorts: 5 hours
Dinner
No.2107
>>2102I don't know much about coding either, but what you've said makes a lot of sense.
>If someone makes a new thread I'll switch to it, though this one not bumping doesn't bother me personallyI guess we can wait until this thread hits page 2.
>>2103That sounds like a really good routine. How long have you been working out?
No.2111
>Sunday"That looks slippery" I said to myself -- it was. Fell on ice, being stupid when taking my brother's dog out to poop, and caught all my weight with left hand. Gash of 1 inch on palm but what really hurts are wrist and back of hand. I'll see about rigging up 50 lb to carry on my back, because I won't be able to do much with my hand for a while.
>>2107Started slow and inconsistent. After maybe a year and a half, working out has become a habit. Fell down stairs when taken with the flu a few months ago, and I didn't allow such a setback derail me for long.
>>2109Thanks.
No.2142
>>2141That sounds a little weird. I've had dreams about websites I regularly visit, but never a nightmare.
Could you tell us about that dream? If it's not too personal, of course.
No.2143
>>2142Sadly I can't remember my dreams in much detail. No matter what I always end up forgetting basically everything the moment I wake up. It's actually extremely distressing since what little I do remember of the dream world is usually much better than the real world. The only times I've ever approached happiness has been in the fragments of dreams...
Anyways The last bit I remember of the nightmare isn't terribly interesting, just the mundane rendered in dream logic, but I'll recount it still.
I was trying to connect to tower, but for some reason (I think it was a new law or something), there was no way to connect to anonymous websites anymore. The only way to talk to other wizards was to do so in a public forum, literally. So I looked up from my computer and I was in a gigantic many many storied mall with amusement park rides and staircases to nowhere waiting around in this internet made physical environment complaining about how public it was. At that point some normalfags started hassling me because I was clearly out of place. I was sitting there taking it when out of nowhere came a tall muscular bloke who told them off (they were somehow calling me gay, and he made some kind of joke that turned it back on them, though I can't recall and doubt it actually made any sense). I knew instantly that this was a tower user who was here to use the forum too. Anyway we got along swimmingly and everything seemed well. We're talking and I actually feel strangely connected. But his behavior starts to seem odd. He starts pickpockiting people and doing other strange things. I start to become a bit uneasy. In the end we end up in another location. A large spire with a circular wall like Saruman's tower, except it's more modern made of rusty metal and probably is some sort of broadcasting tower. Anyways we end up going down into the bowels of this structure. Everything is corroded it's quite dark and now I'm starting to feel a bit worried. We step onto a long rickety catwalk stretching into the darkness. My unease reaches it's peak when the door behind us bursts open and light floods in. "POLICE!" is shouted, the guy I was talking to spins around and the box he's been holding swings with such force it opens up throwing out a severed head. Instantly I know that this man isn't a friendly face, he's a wizard serial killer who's been stalking tower users. Feeling terribly sad and betrayed I dive away from him off of the cat walk we are standing on into what used to be blackness but what I now see is an ocean of skinned corpses filling the foundations of this building. I go under. End scene.
I've tried to make it as logical and chronological as I can. I only really remember bits and pieces and sometimes they are multiple simultaneous feelings and knowings. From the fragments I recall my dreams at least don't really seem to go together very well or sensibly like some other people's.
No.2144
>>2143Thank you for sharing your nightmare with me, mage. I must admit that the idea of a future where any misfit is forced to meet in public just because people are afraid of them is pretty scary on its own. It almost sounds like something out of a dystopian future. The worst part is, there must be people out there who would love that to happen. On the other hand, if I understand you correctly, that strange mall was supposed to be a real world version of the internet, am I right? The part where you were trapped in such a dark and lonely place with a wizard serial killer sounded really frightening. However, I can't imagine why someone would kill a wizard, but I guess that’s how dreams tend to be, apparently absurd and full of mysteries.
By the way, I'm sure you've already heard this before but, haven't you thought of writing a dream journal? I've tried it a few times and, after a couple of days, I'm able to remember most of my dreams. However, I must admit that it can be a little annoying sometimes. I mean, the last thing you want to do when you wake up is writing about weird stuff, or at least that's my case.
No.2146
>>2145>I hope you found it at least somewhat entertaining. I haven't a knack for storytelling, but I tried to make it readableI found your dream quite interesting and readable. There's something fascinating about how most dreams are absurd but, at the same time, very meaningful, and yours is a good example of that.
>This mostly represents my fear of people lurking around anonymous boards like this so they can find sad broken people to make fun of with their other internet friendsI've heard about those people who stalk and dox popular "weirdos", but I've never visit their forums. To be honest, I've always hated those assholes. It's pathetic how obsessed they can get over a poor person with bad luck or a different view of the world. I hope none of them lurk this board.
>I'd been reading about people attempting to do just this with the current internet, so that's probably what inspired that part of the nightmareI know what you mean. I haven't read much about the whole deal, but I'm aware that many people are against internet privacy because they think internet would be better place without that. I won't deny I kind of get their point, but what they're proposing is just wrong in my opinion.
I'm sorry for making you bring up your personal problems. I didn't mean to. I can't imagine how hard it must be to deal with such a complex condition. I'm really sad that I can't do anything to help you but wish you the best of luck. And don't worry, there's nothing wrong about sharing these things with us. I like to see this board as a place where any mage can be free to express their thoughts and stories, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who think like that.
>I only mentioned the dream in the first place because I hadn't seen a post in the thread for a bit, and I thought that robot video was a funny sort of surreal.Funnily enough, I can't watch that video you mentioned. Every time I open the mp4 file, I only hear noise, as if it were an audio file.
No.2147
>>2146>I'm sorry for making you bring up your personal problems. I didn't mean to. Don't worry. The blame falls entirely on me. I've been unstable lately and used this as an excuse to cry about things I've been ruminating about for years. You've been entirely too kind by even responding to my nonsense.
>Every time I open the mp4 file, I only hear noise, as if it were an audio file.Ah, my bad. I shrunk the video by re-encoding it with vlc, but I guess it cocked it up. Hopeful you can see this one. Truth be told it's not that interesting, but for me it gave off a very dream like feeling.
To segue into something less of a downer, on the topic dream like images, there's some pretty neato AI generated stuff coming out lately. It's an interest of mine as it raises the prospect of endless dream like content made by machines in the near future. (Warning for these videos: lots of face and eye like shapes.)
No.2149
>>2147Now that I can see the video, I enjoyed the little much more. I'm sure there must be a very mundane explanation behind such a weird "concert", but I can't deny it's kind of fun to imagine the story of these "musicians".
By the way, thank you for sharing the other three videos with us. I can perfectly see why some people would find them disturbing or even disgusting, but I personally loved them, especially the last one. It almost feel like being trapped in a weird dream. Out of curiosity, do you remember the name of the AI that made these videos?
No.2156
Once again,
_Content Warning_ for these videos
>>2149>Out of curiosity, do you remember the name of the AI that made these videos?The method used is generally referred to by the google colab name "Disco Diffusion", it is also called CLIP Guided Diffusion.
It's another image generation method based on pairing CLIP with a generator, like VQGAN, but in this case it uses a diffusion based method and a mixture of models. This AI actually only makes still images, but with clever instructions and by feeding the images it makes back into the AI with transformations applied (rotation, zooming, ect) semi-coherent video can be made.
Some youtube tutorials here. (they only cover the previous version 4.1 instead of v5 though)
(Short introduction)
https://iteroni.com/watch?v=FA2MNG8D5x0(Longer tutorial specific to making videos)
https://iteroni.com/watch?v=afkpifMPOGA(advice on phrasing the prompt to get good images)
https://iteroni.com/watch?v=w7VFkU1zM30 No.2158
>>2156Thank you for those links.
I watched the videos and then took a look at some images made with Disco Diffusion. I could not resist giving it a try, so I followed the first tutorial you posted with this prompt: "Sea monster swimming through the ruins of an ancient underwater civilization".
I still have to wait to see my image, but in the meantime, here are a couple of sea monsters from ArtStation.
No.2160
>>2158>>2159>"Sea monster swimming through the ruins of an ancient underwater civilization".It missed some of the intended marks, but it still came out really cool looking. It makes me think of concept art. Like it's a design for a boss battle against a mutant leviathan or something.
No.2176
>>2171I'm very glad there are still people who post here too. It's true that there are periods in which this place is a little dead, but that only lasts for a few days at most.
