>>2529
I kind of wish I had a real life but I don't really think I ever had a chance. I only ever knew the feeling of being an outsider looking in as everyone had fun, but I couldn't really understand them and I somehow just could never do the things they could do. I'm just totally unsuited to this world. I don't know what's wrong with me beyond that.

>>2561
It's truly frightening. I hate how things that seem like 5 years ago were really 10 or more and what seems like 2 years is 5. The older you get the faster it goes and the more you wonder where it all went and how you ended up like this… Godspeed wizbro

>>2562
I've been waiting for someone to post.

I hope you guys are doing okay.

>>2565
I feel old.

>>2566
Because I guess we kinda are now, huh? Still getting used to it

>>1454
I hope you get well soon!

My heart has been missing beats lately. Got real light headed during one or two and thought that was it. Wasn't though (obviously). Don't know if it means anything, but I always figured I'd die around this age, one way or another.

Losing weight sucks so much but I did this to myself. I have set kind of a wild goal for myself and I have been doing well on my plan so far, actually exceeding my expectations, but it sucks to constantly feel the shame of knowing this is a completely avoidable situation that I put myself in out of sheer gluttony. Every step I take I know that's a step I wouldn't have to take if I just didn't eat cookies or whatever else. Hopefully I can get this over with soon. Ultimately I know this isn't even the worst part, the worst part will be trying to moderate my eating after I'm done losing weight. Extremes are easy for me, eating too much or too little doesn't really take any thought, eating too little is just annoying since I know it was completely under my own control to not put on this weight. The hard thing for me is keeping myself consistent with a healthy diet once I have lost the weight I want to lose. This has to be the third or fourth time I've put on a lot of weight pretty quickly and then had to cut back on food to get back to a healthy weight. I might just have to quit eating snacks almost completely because I simply can't stop myself from pigging out like a retarded child if there's something tasty in front of me and I'm not purposefully dieting.

>>2519
I've wanted to have the wherewithal to join Overeaters Anonymous for a while now.

>>2550
If you're not too neurotic about it, as in, you could see yourself making a warm first-impression, I'd say go for it! I went to a support group for people with my disorder and it was honestly one of the few times in my entire life I felt understood in a genuine capacity. The feeling when you're finally speaking to someone on your wavelength is indescribable, It's not like dealing with sheltered therapists who only READ about whatever you have been through. Unfortunately, it too much of a long drive and it's at the heart of an awful capital city, so I haven't returned. I will probably look for a closer group now that you've reminded me...

>>2539
That's horrible, and I wonder what happens in such a case, would they still try to "save" him when he is completely gone but the cellular processes are somehow continuing on their own? And then what? Existing for years in that state would be awful.

>>2543
I can't stand necroposting, but I felt that was worth sharing after coming across a WWII vet sharing a similar experience.
https://youtu.be/leeB5EoQcIs?si=FAG0qV9vBw8EffuT&t=627
Living within strolling distance of an armory and having dealt with suicidal thoughts myself is certainly why that story left such an impression.

The guy from the OP did end up dying, I can't remember if it was en route to the hospital or at there. In America, unless you're screaming bloody murder every micro-second and are in constant obvious agony they will absolutely try to keep you alive, even at a vegetative state.

>>2545
It’s kind of comforting to think chat they would really try to treat you if an accident happened, but disturbing to to think that you could end up as a vegetable.

I meant to add that I don't think necroposting is a real problem here… this place needs more posts even if the threads are old.

All this talk about death is lightweight compared to people who get exposed to radiation and experimented upon.

>>2511
My father died last year so I kind of know what you must be going through.

Unrelated but I spent the last 3 hours searching my room top to bottom looking for my watch. I moved my desk, checked all my pockets, took photos under cabinets to see if it was under there, checked the bins I’d emptied, checked my clothes basket. I checked the entire floor as I’d just brushed it. I give up, I walk downstairs to get a drink, I come up, and my watch is sitting in the middle of the empty floor. I think the fairies are playing with me.

>>2514
An ok relationship with him, we weren’t like super close so it’s not the same as if my mother died. But I have felt similar feelings around other deaths.

33 today. Slowly ranking up my wizard powers 🧙🏽.

Just dumped 1200€ for a new gaming PC and the exact moment I got it the will of playing disappeared.

I guess this is a classic moment of the actual pleasure is the await itself.

>>2544
I remember doing that with a gaming PC, a playstation, and probably some other things. I guess I got it meaning to play games but actually playing them was too much out of my normal routine so I just didn't. Since you obviously meant to play something when you bought it I recommend trying to just force yourself to play whatever games you had in mind, at least for a couple of hours. Maybe you will warm to it.