No.2563
I am slowly starting to go insane day by day. That's the best way that I can put what has been happening to me. I've been doing and have had things done to me that are unexplainable and basically physically impossible. Things that I would never do, I suddenly start doing for no reason. Over the most trivial and nonsensical things, I start screaming hysterically and mumbling to myself and no matter what I do, I can't stop it. This board is called /kind/ and it says "No Bully! Help Others!". I need help from anyone who has experienced something similar and, if possible, a countermeasure to ward off whatever this is, be insanity or something completely different. I don't even use the internet at all anymore, nor do I have any contact with other people, but I'm running out of ideas. Also, I know how to write Japanese so please talk to me in Japanese if you can, just for fun.
No.2564
>>2563Sounds like what happened to my uncle. He ended up having schizophrenia. You're going to have see a doctor for any real countermeasure.
No.2584
>>2563Insanity may be inevitable but it can be tamed.
No.2620
>>2563Did you took anti depression pill. I know that a lot of online people on imageboard told you to take meds, but please dont take the advice seriously. It's was obviously a joke.
If you do have schizo, I would suggest to change your diet to gluten free on everything. Wish you all the best anon.
No.2621
Schizophrenia is tough
I've had two friends with it, and I'm in contact with neither of them now
I don't know much about their personal lives but one kinda managed for a while
He was a British skinhead that raided discord servers with pedophiles in it. He would infiltrate them by catfishing usually, then me and another friend would brick the server with admin powers when any mods/admins with higher powers were asleep
However, he of course started chasing 16 year old girls on discord himself acting pretty creepy, being in his 20s, and justified it just because it was legal
Eventually he started dropping hints that he was into girls even younger than that
I'm pretty sure he was living in a very small apartment by himself, going in and out of homelessness, and given his erratic schedule and length of time he would spend on discord talking all the time, I'm pretty sure he had no job or other hobbies
My other friend was one I met at church and the first thing he talked about to me when he met me was jews and mossad or something
I think my friends already told him I was kinda into ironic racist stuff which might've been why that was the first thing he said, but this guy took it to a whole new level
He flooded me and my church friends' groupchat with stuff about the jews and various conspiracy theories, and funnily enough my black friend was the one who talked to him the most about those things
It got so bad that he scared off women from our group for a while (this was just a general young adults group)
As time went on it kept getting worse, where he would be explaining his views to random people and even to the priests, and when we kicked him out of our group activities until he could behave he went ballistic and started spamming most of my friends telling them to commit suicide or various things, probably some threats thrown in there aswell, and sent the worst amount of spam to the head of the group, who was part of the minor clergy (sub-deacon)
Not long after this he moved out to new mexico and all anyone knew was that he was trying to escape the feds for some unknown reason, and wound up in an asylum
These stories are pretty sad but you might be able to learn from them a bit at least, just please avoid hurting your friends otherwise you'll do something you can't take back
I'm struggling with BPD personally and as the months go by I've been having more and more panic attacks and doing more risky things on impulse
Neither of our conditions are very curable I think, and if we somehow do struggle through a long, miserable life to retirement age, our mental illness usually gets replaced with dementia
Just remember, whatever you do, or whatever happens to you, god will forgive you in the end
No.2640
>>2621Your friends sounded great.
No.2646
>>2620why gluten-free, though?
>>2621are you doing anything to treat your BPD? untreated BPD sounds like it would be pretty sucky, to be honest...
>>2640yeah, but they definitely sound like they could use some help!
No.2653
>>2646>why gluten-free, though?Because I read about in depth schizophrenia studies on how how does food like gluten intake could be link with schizophrenia.
https://web.archive.org/web/20191219210249/https://www.greenmedinfo.health/blog/60-years-research-links-gluten-grains-schizophrenia. Also out of curiousity, I did read about an article on Novac Djokovic diet routine. One of the reason why he is the world no.1 in tennis is because of his diet, that is gluen free.
https://olympics.com/en/news/novak-djokovic-gluten-free-diet. Obvious you cant be a champion in sport without having a healthy diet.
In the end of the day, is all up to your perception to decide whether this infomation is good for you. I really do like to read in depth reseach studies especially on health research.
No.2674
>>2646>are you doing anything to treat your BPD? untreated BPD sounds like it would be pretty sucky, to be honest...no, not yet, but its getting to become unbearable
a few days ago i overdosed accidentally and even though it put me through a terrible panic attack i keep thinking about drugging myself again as a way of self harm
No.2676
Why is everybody insane now?
No.2681
>>2676good question! and i'm not sure... how much sleep is everyone getting?
>>2674self-harm sounds pretty bad... i think you might be addicted to drugs. try to take less drugs, and eat more foods with magnesium and vitamin c!
No.2692
>>2681Not much sleep. I have nightmares or wake up in the night when I do sleep. I'm very worried about going back to college and failing. I'm so terrified I have dreams about it. Sometimes my hands shake and sometimes I can't step outside.
No.2728
There are none. Enjoy your one way ride into hell. Also if I were not going insane I wouldn't end up here. Why do think I come to obscure altchans? Because I seek a place to communicate. And only imageboards are suitable. Or whatever. I don't know. Anyway, even if sane people come here they avoid the insane. And if you're insane, welcome to our little club friend, none of us have a barest idea how to stop dying inside.