/kind/ - Random Acts of Kindness

I've been extremely depressed for a very long time, and the one thing I've found happiness and meaning in has been my friend's little sister. While hanging out with my friend years ago and she joined us and I basically became attached to her from there. I was happier than I'd ever been in my life the day I met her, but I became depressed shortly after, and I'm not sure why.

It's been close to eight years since I've met her, in between that we've shared a lot of great memories and gotten pretty close, but now the depressions worsened and I fear we're sort of drifting away from each other, like now that she's a teenager she's starting to view me as more of a nuisance and is growing out of being around me. My friend and I discussed this, and we thought of all hanging out together and maybe having a chill discussion where i could express some of these feelings and memories we've had, hobbies we share, that sort of thing.

I've long thought that I guess in a way confessing to her and having a heart to heart with her would make us closer and might help me understand why I've been depressed, but it's still something that terrifies me. Bringing the idea up with my friend, who was really supportive was already extremely difficult. I'm hoping things go well. Thanks for reading my vent post I guess.